patricia68

I lost count of how many times I posted a "Day 1" message

But I'm here once more. I am a bit embarrassed...

I guess a lot of people have been through several Day 1s before they succeeded?

Last night I downloaded the Big Book. I am reading Chapter 5...very slowly, really thinking, highlighting, reading again.

Any advice would be great. (hugs would help too!)

Patricia

Stoogy

Hi Patricia, we have all been there. Never feel embarrassed to post your feelings or thoughts here. No one will judge you. We are all on this epic journey together and the help we find here gives us motivation to carry on.
All the best Patricia and have a great weekend.

ScottFromWI

Weclome back Patricia. You are correct that many of us have gone through multiple day 1's, I know I did. This very well could be your last though...so don't stop trying.

Regarding advice, if you are reading the big book I'd say try out an AA meeting. Worst thing that could happen is you spend an hour in the company of others who have exactly the same problem ( drinking ) and goal ( to stop drinking ).

You will find something that works for you if you keep trying, and I hope that this is your time. It's better on every level and it gets easier.

SoberLeigh

No judgement here, patricia, and hugs for you. I agree with Scott; face-to-face support at AA may be good.

Holli

Of course I had to stop on this thread, because I have racked up a few day 1s myself! I hope the key is to keep trying. And keep posting here, nobody is judging you because we know how hard it is.

patricia68

I live in very small town. The closest AA meeting is 30 minutes away, then I would have to ask my husband to take me, and I haven't told him I am an alcoholic. I don't think I can tell him, at least not now.

Upward2Enlightenment

It's ok patricia, the important thing is you keep trying. Do you not want to tell your husband because you are embarrassed or you think he will be judgmental? If I may ask, you don't have to answer.

We are here for you,..... hugs and all.

patricia68

Both. He just doesn't understand addiction.

bloss

Everyone starts with just one day, keep trying, keep sharing here and if you decide on a support group and can attend, that is really great. The main thing is don't give up, don't take the first drink, jump online if the urge hits, someone is always on SR. Take care

Hevyn

I did it too Patricia - but I finally convinced myself drinking would never again make me happy or relaxed. It always led to misery and despair. Took me awhile, but I got free, and you can too. Never stop trying or reaching out to us - you came back and that's what counts.

Thepatman

I was here last weekend and people did not judge me.

I'm on day3 it had to start with another day1 ;-)

Upward2Enlightenment

I'm sorry about that but like bloss said just jump online, always someone here. Even it's just to talk or vent.

Vigilance

I had so many day 1's.
My last was over a year and a half ago. You CAN do it.
(((HUGS))) to you.

Raider

Don't worry, the way to sobriety is to keep trying, like Holli said.

patricia68

I am 2 hours away from being 24 hours sober.

It was a difficult day, I feel like a have the flu and my anxiety was very high in the morning.

I had 2 naps and wanted to sleep more but I had to take care of my little boy. I also went for a 20 minute walk, it made me very tired but it also seemed to help with the anxiety.

I haven't been eating much, but I am drinking gallons of chamomile and green tea.

I am so grateful for all your help!

Dee74

Welcome back Patricia

My advice is to do everything you can - for instance, if telling your husband is too hard right now, maybe on online meeting may help?

Reading the BigBook is surely helpful too, but just reading it will probably not be enough...

At least, do also check out our Class of April support group:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-4-a-4.html

great support there

D

patricia68

I would love to try an online meeting Dee!

Dee74

I'mmnot an AAer but I'm sure others here can tell where to look.

We have recovery topic meetings here too - there's a meeting in 45 mins or so I think

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...y-meeting.html
D

patricia68

Thank you Dee!

Justadude

Day one... Don't we all know about multiple day ones. I had some Day one days that were not officially labeled as such. The " I have to get control of this Day ones. And then there were the "I have to stop this!" Day ones. Hang in there. Hugs, Prayers and positive energy to you... Most of all... Understanding.