Jill23

Well, I had a good run. Went for almost 2 months and thought I had a handle on it. I even went to an all inclusive resort in the DR, the kind with in room liquor dispensers, and I didn't drink a drop. The AV was pretty quiet. Then it tricked me. "You can drink like a normal person" "You didn't drink the whole time you were on vacation, you deserve a cocktail". Well, I can't and I sure as hell didn't. So, here I go again. I'm not going to try to do it alone this time. I'm not really a group joiner but I'm going to go to a meeting today. My husband is fed up with me and I want him to know I'm serious. Its just so frustrating! I know its a disease and there is a simple cure, why do I keep torturing myself? I just wish I could understand. Thanks for listening

MIRecovery

Cunning baffling and powerful without help it is too much for us. There may be other ways to quit drinking but AA is the only thing thing that worked for me.

FYI I have seen a ton of people make it through a drinkIng situation only to relapse shortly after. For me I avoided all drinking situations for a year.

least

Welcome back! I'm glad you're giving it another go.

simplenoteasy

Jill I don't think I could make it through an all inclusive holiday. I'm 27 days and the all exclusive route is working for me. I mean staying away from drinking situations.

Tang

Jill, what you describe has happened to me. You are strong for doubling down on additional support.

Anna

I'm glad you recognize that you need to keep at it. The disease of alcoholism is diabolical and denial is a huge part of it. You can get through this!

Amazingglazier

Stay on here, we will help you !Happy Easter! Stay Strong and Well ! Bobby

aasharon90

I first had to ADMIT I have a problem with alcohol.

Second, I had to ACCEPT that I have a problem
with alcohol.

Third, BELIEVE that there is a way to not
drink a day at a time with a program of
recovery learned, absorbed, and applied
to my everyday life.

Dee74

Hi Jill - yeah doing good can be a danger point sometimes.
Eventually I just accepted that I'm an alcohol and drinking and I are a bad combination, and always will be

You'll get there

D

instant

Acceptance can lead to a new king of understanding- a 'knowing' rather than controlling understanding

Jill23

Thank you, everyone. The meeting went well. I tried not to cry but a few tears did spill. Everyone was very nice and they gave me the book and a bunch of phone numbers. I went ahead and took the white chip. I was the only first timer there and they geared a lot of their sharing to me and the common theme was keep coming back. I will be going back tomorrow and I will try to get to as many meetings as I can this week. I can see now what people are talking about when they discuss what AA can do for you. I have admitted that I am an alcoholic, now its time to get to work. I just want to be well, I know I can do it!