i think i had an epiphany
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i think i had an epiphany
Spelled epiphany wrong sorry all. Short background , told my x dry drunk I was leaving in October 2013 bought a home and move out. All great right , well the craziness of my co dependency kicked in high gear, sobbing , mind spinning , obsessing etc.. talked to him , he asked for me to come visit last weekend. I was quite excited for a possible beginning of a reunion. Wow , as I wrong .. I got to his house ,He laid on the couch basically ignoring me until it was 5 minutes before we left for dinner . I had bought new shoes , got my toes done etc...(Did I tell you he said we were going for a nice dinner date), he threw on a t shirt , no shower no shave nothing . Complains about waiting 30 minutes at the restaurant and plays video games on his phone until we sat Down . Not to mention he took me to a seafood restaurant and he knows after 10 years I do not like seafood. Need I say more ugh!! I cried hysterically for two days , then it was like a light switch... I do not want that , I want a man that meets me , meets me in life and love. I am finally mad ! it feels so much better than fear and sadness .
I feel somewhat sorry for him ,he has no clue how to love or be in a mutually fulfilling relationship. I hope this feeling continues.
I feel somewhat sorry for him ,he has no clue how to love or be in a mutually fulfilling relationship. I hope this feeling continues.
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Originally Posted by horsegirl 
Spelled epiphany wrong sorry all. Short background , told my x dry drunk I was leaving in October 2013 bought a home and move out. All great right , well the craziness of my co dependency kicked in high gear, sobbing , mind spinning , obsessing etc.. talked to him , he asked for me to come visit last weekend. I was quite excited for a possible beginning of a reunion. Wow , as I wrong .. I got to his house ,He laid on the couch basically ignoring me until it was 5 minutes before we left for dinner . I had bought new shoes , got my toes done etc...(Did I tell you he said we were going for a nice dinner date), he threw on a t shirt , no shower no shave nothing . Complains about waiting 30 minutes at the restaurant and plays video games on his phone until we sat Down . Not to mention he took me to a seafood restaurant and he knows after 10 years I do not like seafood. Need I say more ugh!! I cried hysterically for two days , then it was like a light switch... I do not want that , I want a man that meets me , meets me in life and love. I am finally mad ! it feels so much better than fear and sadness .
I feel somewhat sorry for him ,he has no clue how to love or be in a mutually fulfilling relationship. I hope this feeling continues.
I feel somewhat sorry for him ,he has no clue how to love or be in a mutually fulfilling relationship. I hope this feeling continues.
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I have had a similar experience. No one wanted me to go, said it was my codependency kicking in but I didn't think so. I had to go for me, I had to see for myself, the reality, not my fantasy. It was powerful. I am glad you went too.
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Originally Posted by LoveMeNow
I have had a similar experience. No one wanted me to go, said it was my codependency kicking in but I didn't think so. I had to go for me, I had to see for myself, the reality, not my fantasy. It was powerful. I am glad you went too.
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