Breaking habits
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Breaking habits
Checking in guys, and I hope everyone is fighting the good fight.
These last few months have been some of the most enlightening of my life. I'm not there yet, but I've had more success than I have in the two years since this all started (very heavy drinking anyway with no sober days ever).
With more sober time I've been able to firstly, explore more meaningful and healthy means of fulfilment, and secondly, just realise that often the present moment is more than fine, to relax, and come to grips that not everyday needs to be spent trying (pushing) to enrich my life (doing so can lead to the opposite, I've found).
I'm sometimes deal with feelings of fear and dread, and I have to admit that a significant part of my drinking is to dampen anxiety, instead of dealing with it in a healthy way (I've had immense success in tackling it properly and in a healthy way in the past by the way).
I just wanted to put this out there, and I'm sure people can relate, would love to hear from you. I really want to get to that better place, if I'm even thinking about this the right way.
These last few months have been some of the most enlightening of my life. I'm not there yet, but I've had more success than I have in the two years since this all started (very heavy drinking anyway with no sober days ever).
With more sober time I've been able to firstly, explore more meaningful and healthy means of fulfilment, and secondly, just realise that often the present moment is more than fine, to relax, and come to grips that not everyday needs to be spent trying (pushing) to enrich my life (doing so can lead to the opposite, I've found).
I'm sometimes deal with feelings of fear and dread, and I have to admit that a significant part of my drinking is to dampen anxiety, instead of dealing with it in a healthy way (I've had immense success in tackling it properly and in a healthy way in the past by the way).
I just wanted to put this out there, and I'm sure people can relate, would love to hear from you. I really want to get to that better place, if I'm even thinking about this the right way.
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Originally Posted by Kys 
just realise that often the present moment is more than fine, to relax, and come to grips that not everyday needs to be spent trying (pushing) to enrich my life (doing so can lead to the opposite, I've found)
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Thanks, Kys, for your post.
I can relate to all this. The present moment, I have found, is all we have, all we can control, and therefore, all we need to think about. "Whenever in doubt, just do the next right thing," another alcoholic-in-recovery told me.
I deal with anxiety and definitely drank to bury it. After a few drinks I became smarter, stronger, more assertive and without anxiety. Of course I didn't stop there and three days later I'd be shaking from withdrawals. Brings back memories, but it's good because it's important for me to remember my last drunk, which keeps me sober. But I'm one year sober today! Feels like a miracle. Thanks to AA I feel much better.
Thanks again for posting!
Andy
I can relate to all this. The present moment, I have found, is all we have, all we can control, and therefore, all we need to think about. "Whenever in doubt, just do the next right thing," another alcoholic-in-recovery told me.
I deal with anxiety and definitely drank to bury it. After a few drinks I became smarter, stronger, more assertive and without anxiety. Of course I didn't stop there and three days later I'd be shaking from withdrawals. Brings back memories, but it's good because it's important for me to remember my last drunk, which keeps me sober. But I'm one year sober today! Feels like a miracle. Thanks to AA I feel much better.
Thanks again for posting!
Andy
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