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6 days and counting
Last week I lost a high school friend to a OD and attended the funeral. I had a cousin who committed suicide in 2000 and going to the funeral and seeing his niece and nephews and younger brothers and sisters hugging the casket brought me back to 14 year ago when I was that kid hugging my cousins casket. It was a dark and dreary place after I smoked weed and drank that day and it got me thinking how routinely I do this and act as if it's as if I was brushing my teeth or getting dressed. I was on my break at work and it suddenly hit me I need to change my life do something anything to make it better. I didn't think I could last this long working on a line in a kitchen as a cook all my co workers are drinkers or smokers or both and laughed at me when I told them I was going to take the path of sobriety. Finally had a day off my one day off a week I get and wanted to smoke and drink after I finished my errands but I didn't. I told myself why try so hard for 5 days to throw it all away now. Of course I would try to become sober before my 25th birthday on 4/19 and then 4/20 the following day and a Red Sox Yankees game at Fenway I got for a birthday gift on the 24th all very big tests for my sobriety. I do have a sponsor but I'm so stubborn I don't really call or text them I try to fight through it because getting help from someone makes me feel weak. I've been having trouble sleeping more than 5/6 hours a night but I'm fighting through it. Theirs much more to my story but thank you for even taking the time to sit here and read this I hope your recovery is going smoothly.
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Wow Brad, that's just awesome.
About those co-workers laughing at you getting clean and healthy. Wait 20 years from now, you will most likely come across one of them on the street and see what 20 years of body abuse can do. Than you will think back to this day, when you made th best choice of your life.
Keep moving forward! You rock!
About those co-workers laughing at you getting clean and healthy. Wait 20 years from now, you will most likely come across one of them on the street and see what 20 years of body abuse can do. Than you will think back to this day, when you made th best choice of your life.
Keep moving forward! You rock!
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Thank you Diana keep it up only gets easier from here. I need to pray to my sponsor mentioned it to me to such a great idea. Good to know their are others out their taking the same path. Keep on keeping on.
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Me to this is such a great website I'm glad I researched it and found it. It's helping me right from the start! I'm off to work now and it's much easier now waking up and going to work enjoying life really for what it is now and going to fave the tests along the road the best I can. Thanks everyone for taking the time to help others it's truly a blessing.
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Thanks everyone made it through work today a ok things are going good. A few co workers cracked jokes but I'm ok with it I know who I am and what I want and it's not always about me means a lot to me to hear others encouragement. You guys a life savers
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