Holli

I drank yesterday, and I am coming clean here. Beer, don't even like it, but I had four anyway. I am extremely disappointed in myself and a little disappointed in my enabling husband. Not sure what to do with him because he isn't ready to quit himself and keeps bringing alcohol into the house. I'm not blaming him -- the decision to drink was ultimately mine. I am recommitting to having a sober life again.

Goldcoastgirl

Forgive yourself, that's what I am trying to do instead of beating myself up. None of us think any less of you for slipping. Today is a new day x

Nonsensical

Glad you made it back. Do you think you will do some things differently this time?

instant

Dust yourself off and start again.

Feeling good was always a trap for me until I learned how to approach it

Holli

I know that yesterday I was very bored, three straight days of heavy rain. I had something fun scheduled yesterday morning and then I blew it off (mistake!). I think I need to learn how to actually start to live sober, if that makes sense.

KateL

Just try again, Holli xxxx

hopefulinAus

Would you consider telling your husband how
Much you need his supprot?

Nonsensical

Perfect sense. I quit drinking dozens of times, I started living sober once.

Booze was my 'go to' solution for every situation. I didn't know how to do anything else. I had to learn. I am still learning.

Looking4Help123

Nevermind holli you still have the sober days before and you will have the sober days after. I agree its about "(re) learning how to live sober" which is not an easy task or one that is achieved quickly.

It sounds like your husband might be flexible enough to help you out. It would be very very hard to have alcohol floating in front of you on a regular basis.

Planning to stay busy and sticking to those plans is what has helped me. As well as tackling the internal AV when it pops up at strange moments with crazy suggestions.

All the best.

Dee74

Learning to live sober is a skill like any other - sometimes it takes a run up or too to clear that first hurdle

Have you any ideas on how you could deal a little better with the situations you faced?

D

Weasel1966

Holli.... You sound almost exactly like I did for a long time. My partner at the time was not willing to quit. If I were to stop I would have to do it for two and then he would sulk until he got his way.

It's just not an easy place to be but take every sober day you can get. If you slip in the process don't take it out on yourself. That builds an even worse pattern.

I love when you participate on the weekender and hear the sober excitement in your posts. I also see some trepidation. But you need to focus on you.

Keep going. Make it so yesterday did not even happen.

Ken

Holli

Thank you for your support -- you guys are the best! I need to think about this carefully and pull together a solid plan for next weekend.

IWLSAST

don't beat yourself up
here you are back on a sober path within a day
congrats!!

Holli

We have an agreement, no alcohol in the house this weekend. Not a lifelong commitment to sobriety from the husband, but a good start. :-) Still working out fun stuff to do to break the "I'm bored let's drink" cycle.