Disgusted
Disgusted
So I joined back in August and thought I was going to be different and not slip, not realizing that this will be an issue with me FOREVER. I went through 2 periods of abstaining for 2+ months and thought I had it licked. Then when temptation kicked in I thought I could handle "just Friday nights", which then led to some Saturdays to get through the hangover from last night. Well this week there were 3 days in total and I am absolutely disgusted with myself. I know better and I want better and so I'm back because I feel anonymously I can get the support I need to go back to fully abstaining, because that is my only option. I have been on the path to sobriety and I know how good it feels. I knew if I didn't post today and make this commitment to myself I would quickly end up going in the wrong direction. I am so thankful for all of you.
Hi Marcella - it's great to see you.
I did that too - tried to become a social drinker after it almost destroyed me. I was sure if I used enough willpower I could have a few once in awhile. When I finally found SR I was drinking 24/7. It was hard to admit I had no control - but I'd never want to go back to those miserable old days. You can do this.
I did that too - tried to become a social drinker after it almost destroyed me. I was sure if I used enough willpower I could have a few once in awhile. When I finally found SR I was drinking 24/7. It was hard to admit I had no control - but I'd never want to go back to those miserable old days. You can do this.
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Location: Sydney, NSW
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Hang in there Mate. Took me many attempts and lessons including the critical ones ruling out moderation. It just doesn't work for me and for many like me. Pick yourself up, march on. Yesterday was yesterday and today is today.
Marcella, it's really hard to fully accept that alcoholism means we can't drink, ever. But, the upside of that, is when you do accept it, life becomes much easier.
We are here for you.
We are here for you.
Because of my situation, and general outlook I have abstained for months at a time without really trying.
Personally my binges, even one night are horrible. I don't think I decided to commit until I realized that even if one and 20 of my drinking nights were bad, it wouldn't be worth it. That and the hangover, not just physically, but the guilt/shame always ruins a day = not worth it.
Thanks for sharing, it only reinforces my need to commit each day to sobriety.
Personally my binges, even one night are horrible. I don't think I decided to commit until I realized that even if one and 20 of my drinking nights were bad, it wouldn't be worth it. That and the hangover, not just physically, but the guilt/shame always ruins a day = not worth it.
Thanks for sharing, it only reinforces my need to commit each day to sobriety.
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