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Hi,
I have been struggling with addiction to drugs and alcohol for the better part of 10 years. I now realize that after years of battling I simply cannot drink or use again ever. I just came off a major binge that almost cost me everything. I went to AA for about 6-7months back in 2011-2012 and then figured I could go back to casual drinking/use and I was fine for a bit until I hit the binges then everything that mattered to be suddenly became nothing. I know I will not survive unless I completely quit right here right now forever. Please help I am really struggling.
Thanks for your time,
I have been struggling with addiction to drugs and alcohol for the better part of 10 years. I now realize that after years of battling I simply cannot drink or use again ever. I just came off a major binge that almost cost me everything. I went to AA for about 6-7months back in 2011-2012 and then figured I could go back to casual drinking/use and I was fine for a bit until I hit the binges then everything that mattered to be suddenly became nothing. I know I will not survive unless I completely quit right here right now forever. Please help I am really struggling.
Thanks for your time,
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Sorry you're struggling - if you now know you can't drink or use again, and AA worked for you for a while, why not go back? On our own we tend to find reasons to go out/drink again. That's the baffling part of addiction right? If you are really ready to quit, and it sounds like you are motivated to, I would reach out and get help - today. This website is good but human contact is better. Just like an infant literally needs human contact to develop properly, we addicts and alcoholics need other people, sober people to guide us in sobriety. I'm sure there are a ton of meetings in big TO - hope you find one, or if not AA some type of group support. That's truly taking a step in the direction of sobriety.
Hi NA, I can only say I feel your pain. I am in the same boat. Alcohol was my drug of choice. My most recent binge ended on Monday. Very bad, unpredictable things happen to me when I drink. So, I have to stop too. Be strong and maybe we can get through this. I've read many successes on here. Most have a solid plan of recovery. Thats something I need to work on this weekend.
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Hi SNE,, ok let's do it. I had a brief taste of sobriety and wish I kept going as I was doing well I would give anything to return to march 2012 and reverse my choice to grab those heneiken tall boys
Welcome to the SR family. I agree that going back to meetings could be a valuable resource to your sobriety. I got sober with the help of an addiction counselor and daily visits to this site.
I hope the support you find here can help you stay sober for good.
I hope the support you find here can help you stay sober for good.
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Thanks I need to keep active and keep this front of mind every single day. I have a decent job, nice apartment, car and I want to keep those things but the only way I do that is by staying sober.
Welcome neveragain! You found a great place for support & understanding.
I'm glad you realize you need to stop. It took me 30 yrs. to stop playing with it and admit I could never touch it again. A few sips and we're off on a crazy ride, never knowing where it will end. I wasted so much time trying to manage the amounts I drank. In the end I was drinking 24/7 & always miserable. When I joined SR I found the courage to quit. You can do it.
I'm glad you realize you need to stop. It took me 30 yrs. to stop playing with it and admit I could never touch it again. A few sips and we're off on a crazy ride, never knowing where it will end. I wasted so much time trying to manage the amounts I drank. In the end I was drinking 24/7 & always miserable. When I joined SR I found the courage to quit. You can do it.
Good job! You know I truly believe anyone can quit. There are millions. But like I said it seems like most have a plan which unfortunately for me I dont have yet. I havent thought of an addiction councilor. AA doesnt seem to work for me. I'm not knocking it. Anyway, it gets better if we dont use.
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