Too much to lose
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: Denver, CO
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Too much to lose
It has taken a while for me to realize that I probably need to be here and need to stop drinking. I've been convincing myself that I don't have a problem. Last week I went back to the office drunk multiple days and blacked out an evening in which my coworkers had to fill me in on my inappropriate behavior. This was a wake up call for me. Luckily nothing happened that would jeapordize my marriage.
I have a wife, a three year old son and another due this summer. I can't continue to risk my relationship with them and my career. It has to stop. I am tired of regretting things I do or say and living with the anxiety of potential consequence for my drunken actions.
I only had a couple beers tonight, but still, my family deserves a fully present husband and father, and for me to be that means being healthy and sober.
So here I am.
I have a wife, a three year old son and another due this summer. I can't continue to risk my relationship with them and my career. It has to stop. I am tired of regretting things I do or say and living with the anxiety of potential consequence for my drunken actions.
I only had a couple beers tonight, but still, my family deserves a fully present husband and father, and for me to be that means being healthy and sober.
So here I am.
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Welcome to SR, JJ!
Good decision on staying sober.
It took me a while as well to accept I had a problem. It's a first and very important step.
Live is so much better sober.
Best wishes to you.
Good decision on staying sober.
It took me a while as well to accept I had a problem. It's a first and very important step.
Live is so much better sober.
Best wishes to you.
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Location: Baton Rouge, La.
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Find a way to learn about your addiction
to alcohol. How it affects your own body
and mind. There are many sources available
to us that need help and want it.
23 yrs ago I didn't realize I actually had
a drinking problem, but with a car accident
in Feb. 1990, then a failed attempt to end
my life in Aug. 1990 raised red flags for my
family where they stepped in with help placing
me in a rehab facility that was able to help
me learn about my own addiction and it's
affects on me and my family.
I took 28 days in rehab as a gift in recovery
to listen, learn and absorb some important
knowledge and useful tools to apply to my
own life a day at a time.
Take time to get healthy for yourself
and your little family so that you can
be mentally, emotionally, physically,
spiritually fit for yrs sober down the
road.
to alcohol. How it affects your own body
and mind. There are many sources available
to us that need help and want it.
23 yrs ago I didn't realize I actually had
a drinking problem, but with a car accident
in Feb. 1990, then a failed attempt to end
my life in Aug. 1990 raised red flags for my
family where they stepped in with help placing
me in a rehab facility that was able to help
me learn about my own addiction and it's
affects on me and my family.
I took 28 days in rehab as a gift in recovery
to listen, learn and absorb some important
knowledge and useful tools to apply to my
own life a day at a time.
Take time to get healthy for yourself
and your little family so that you can
be mentally, emotionally, physically,
spiritually fit for yrs sober down the
road.
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: Denver, CO
Posts: 36
Thank you all for the welcome and encouragement! As Dee and Free have mentioned it sounds like I need more of a plan than I currently have. My plan is to stop drinking, but it sounds as if people with more sober experience have found this to be insufficient.
I still feel torn, as if I should he able to have a beer or two and then stop, but if that were true I wouldn't be here. I have a lot of friends who are home brewers, I am not sure now how much time I'll be able to spend with them...
As far as a better plan goes, it sounds like I have some research to do. Two hours into day 1, so far so good. God it is going to be strange ordering a water or ice tea or something with lunch.
I still feel torn, as if I should he able to have a beer or two and then stop, but if that were true I wouldn't be here. I have a lot of friends who are home brewers, I am not sure now how much time I'll be able to spend with them...
As far as a better plan goes, it sounds like I have some research to do. Two hours into day 1, so far so good. God it is going to be strange ordering a water or ice tea or something with lunch.
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