dragonfirefly

Hi, lurker for a couple of weeks and seems like a really helpful place, sooooo - had an alcohol and drugs addiction that (with a few decent gaps) has lasted 15 years, and a sleeping pill one that's been about 2. Did my 1st out-patient detox over the past 2 weeks, been drug-free for 3 weeks and benzo free for almost 2 (can't believe the latter) but didn't even go 1 day without booze. Standard addict liar stuff, worked out just how much I could drink (which was at least quite a way down from before) to get a zero breathlyser reading, which was the condition of getting my meds daily. Guess people can imagine the mix of success and failure I'm feeling.

Seeing my main counsellor Monday to assess the detox, seriously thinking about AA for the 1st time as I think anything more 'tolerant' just isn't going to work.

I am an alcoholic (just practising for the 1st meeting ).

least

You've come to a very supportive and friendly site. I hope our support, and AA's, can help you get sober for good.

calichris

Testing my signature (just figured out how to do that ) ...

awuh1

I have a feeling honesty will be the key.

Raider

I'm not understanding??? Why bother going at all if you weren't going to take it seriously? Wouldn't it had been easier in you just to blow the whole thing off?

dragonfirefly

Raider, really didn't get the outcome I was expecting. I felt more hopeless about the benzo dependence than anything else and finally something came along and (early days) helped. Same to a lesser degree with drugs. Flipside, I know it was lousy of me not to be honest about drinking, and the worst of starts, but at least I now have only 1 problem to solve rather than 3. Hope that makes semi-sense.

Dee74

Welcome to SR dragonfirefly

If you think AA can help, why not give it a shot?
you could soon have 0 problems

D

MIRecovery

I hate to tell you this but A A is about the most tolerant you will ever find. No one will care if you choose to be untruthful. One of the bedrock principles of AA is, "To thine own self be true."

AAers will go to hell and back to support your sobriety but if you want drink/drug no one is going to stop you. AA will not keep you from drinking but they will supply the tools that will enable you to keep yourself from drinking

Hevyn

Welcome Dragonfirefly - I think you'll find SR very helpful. Glad you found us.

Cathryn2001

Hi Dragonfirefly--so glad you are here!

KateL

Welcome Dragonfirefly xxxxx