Too easy
Too easy
It's day 4 for me and it's been too easy and I'm VERY wary. I've been here before and I think it's my AV playing the long game with me. You know the one, "Ah sure look it's not that bad, see how easy it's been. You can give up any time you want to. If you fancy a drink, have one. It's not like all those other times. You're different now. SR will be there for you if you fail, but I'm sure you wont. F*** it just one"
Cunning, cunning, cunning. But I'm watching you!
Cunning, cunning, cunning. But I'm watching you!
Hi Sparkos! So true!! I don't know if you were a binger, or every day type drinker. But I am(was) definitely a binger and I can relate completely. The first several days, even couple of weeks of sobriety were relatively easy. But then out of nowhere, a single thought, or comment from someone would trigger a pretty serious AV attack!!! I would be fine all day, then in the blink of an eye I was almost giving myself permission to drink. Luckily I got through them without drinking. It's great that you are aware of this, and I can promise that they do pass in short order. For me, they are very infrequent, but like you mentioned, the AV is patient and can strike at any time. One of the things that does work for me when this happens is to eat until I am somewhat full. That always diminishes and eventually eliminates the mental craving to drink alcohol…
This is so right on. I could've written this exactly.
The thing that helps me is realizing that this is typical thinking of an alcoholic/person with a drinking problem/whatever you want to call it...knowing that this isn't unique thinking to me, helps me see the big picture and say to myself, "Okaaaaaay....yup, if anything this thought pattern just cements the fact that I can't drink." That way I'm able to dismiss it without agonizing over the what ifs.
The thing that helps me is realizing that this is typical thinking of an alcoholic/person with a drinking problem/whatever you want to call it...knowing that this isn't unique thinking to me, helps me see the big picture and say to myself, "Okaaaaaay....yup, if anything this thought pattern just cements the fact that I can't drink." That way I'm able to dismiss it without agonizing over the what ifs.
Hi Sparkos! So true!! I don't know if you were a binger, or every day type drinker. But I am(was) definitely a binger and I can relate completely. The first several days, even couple of weeks of sobriety were relatively easy. But then out of nowhere, a single thought, or comment from someone would trigger a pretty serious AV attack!!! I would be fine all day, then in the blink of an eye I was almost giving myself permission to drink. Luckily I got through them without drinking. It's great that you are aware of this, and I can promise that they do pass in short order. For me, they are very infrequent, but like you mentioned, the AV is patient and can strike at any time. One of the things that does work for me when this happens is to eat until I am somewhat full. That always diminishes and eventually eliminates the mental craving to drink alcohol…
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It's day 4 for me and it's been too easy and I'm VERY wary. I've been here before and I think it's my AV playing the long game with me. You know the one, "Ah sure look it's not that bad, see how easy it's been. You can give up any time you want to. If you fancy a drink, have one. It's not like all those other times. You're different now. SR will be there for you if you fail, but I'm sure you wont. F*** it just one"
Cunning, cunning, cunning. But I'm watching you!
Cunning, cunning, cunning. But I'm watching you!
But then out of nowhere, a single thought, or comment from someone would trigger a pretty serious AV attack!!!…[/QUOTE]
That's exactly it. I suppose I shpuld be using this "easy" time to bolster my defences for the inevitable AV attack.
Thanks all.
That's exactly it. I suppose I shpuld be using this "easy" time to bolster my defences for the inevitable AV attack.
Thanks all.
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