Lonely, bored, and don't want to work
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Lonely, bored, and don't want to work
It kind of sucks, but you know what, if those are the only things I have to complain about today, then I'm doing pretty darned good! 
I'm not going to drink over it!
I'm not going to drink over it!
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Greeneggs know how you feel. It's like you come out of this dream and realise that you had nothing to do except drink.
I spend alot of time thinking about what I'd like to do before dying (of old age!) and planning what I can do about those things now. It's a bit dreamy but it helps me take my mind off being bored/lonely.
I spend alot of time thinking about what I'd like to do before dying (of old age!) and planning what I can do about those things now. It's a bit dreamy but it helps me take my mind off being bored/lonely.
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Originally Posted by Looking4Help123 
Greeneggs know how you feel. It's like you come out of this dream and realise that you had nothing to do except drink.
I spend alot of time thinking about what I'd like to do before dying (of old age!) and planning what I can do about those things now. It's a bit dreamy but it helps me take my mind off being bored/lonely.
I spend alot of time thinking about what I'd like to do before dying (of old age!) and planning what I can do about those things now. It's a bit dreamy but it helps me take my mind off being bored/lonely.
But today I realized....man, this DOES suck! I have never felt that way for more than like 5 minutes because I would drink. I even work at home and drink when I work! So, bored? Drink. Lonely? Drink. Work? Drink. Now I just have to feel how bored, lonely, and working when I don't want to actually feels and it's a drag. But it sure beats the blackouts, feeling sick, hangovers, shakes, destroying relationships while plastered, etc.
I'm kind of happy that I can finally empathize with my friend because I've really been an insensitive jerk.
eta: By the way, said friend's wife passed away last year of cancer. He stayed by her on her death bed. He watched a 40 year old woman with a six year old child turn into an old lady, skin and bones, disfigured, suffering and pass away. So my complaining of being BORED seems a bit ridiculous compared to how bad things could be. I really am making an effort to find the positives in life, which I don't do naturally. I've been a drunk for 28 years so wallowing self-pity is my norm.
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Originally Posted by GreenEggsAndHam
eta: By the way, said friend's wife passed away last year of cancer. He stayed by her on her death bed. He watched a 40 year old woman with a six year old child turn into an old lady, skin and bones, disfigured, suffering and pass away. So my complaining of being BORED seems a bit ridiculous compared to how bad things could be. I really am making an effort to find the positives in life, which I don't do naturally. I've been a drunk for 28 years so wallowing self-pity is my norm.
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Aww, GEAH, I'm sorry you're feeling down. I felt the same way the first few weeks of recovery. Like, what am I supposed to do with all my downtime? I've been answering that question and filling up my time. 
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