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Hello SR
There are a myriad of reasons why I do not drink. One is that I drink alcoholically and I am an alcoholic in recovery. Another is that I have had terrible consequences from drinking, and I have chosen to actually live my life instead of wallowing about my future with a glass of wine. I can attest to not living before. I wasted a lot of time being wasted and this wasted state was one that kept me down in the dumps drunk and unable. I have discovered how capable I really am once I was put into the driving seat of the little car called "My life." I would like to think that I have worn out my Welcome in the drinking arena and I have given my seat to someone else. Hopefully that someone else sits comfortable in their chair and does not make a fool of themselves like I have been known to do. May they sit upright and drink responsibly. I have learned my lesson on repeat. The lesson is tiring. Moving on.
In a few days I will have gained 365 days of continual sobriety. I cannot say that this 365 days was all Rainbows, Unicorns, and more Rainbows. In fact, it was terribly hard at times. I just did not give up the mission of one day at a time. The one thing that has helped me in all of this is the fact that I am forever banned from alcohol. This thought alone has kept me in the present moment and has kept me in the belief that there is no problem large enough to make me drink. Also, the thought of a hangover (which I will no doubt have) is not appealing and it scares the hell out of me.
I finished a year in college with a 3.84. Gained steady employment after losing a job which is why I am sober today. Built a better foundation with my marriage. Committed myself to change. Gained back an emotional clarity that took me months to find and uncover. Mental clarity is fleeting but I think this is more my personality than anything else
. There is no reason for me to resume drinking. There is every reason for me to resume sobriety. So, I am living. That is all. A year is really not much. Learning to sustain and to work through the years without a drink in hand is the ultimate goal. Each day is a new learning experience. SO, moving into this next year all I can say is that I will take it one day at a time.
Things to do:
Read a book and then read another
Take a walk, many walks
Buy those Roller Skates
Dust off the sowing machine and teach myself to sow.
Continue educational goals
Save money
Learn the pottery wheel
Plant a garden this summer
Go Hiking
Find a swimming hole for when it gets really hot
Tell my loved ones that I love them on a daily basis
Let each day be a new day
Learn to forgive (which is harder than obtaining a top notch education)
Continue breathing in and out
Relax
Learn to cook a new dish
Continue saying "YES" to life
No more self defeating thoughts and behaviors
Write a gratitude list and then another and another
Carry on with being a member of a sober community
When it is bad, it will not always be that way. When it is good, it will not always be that way
Love myself like I do everyone else
In a few days I will have gained 365 days of continual sobriety. I cannot say that this 365 days was all Rainbows, Unicorns, and more Rainbows. In fact, it was terribly hard at times. I just did not give up the mission of one day at a time. The one thing that has helped me in all of this is the fact that I am forever banned from alcohol. This thought alone has kept me in the present moment and has kept me in the belief that there is no problem large enough to make me drink. Also, the thought of a hangover (which I will no doubt have) is not appealing and it scares the hell out of me.
I finished a year in college with a 3.84. Gained steady employment after losing a job which is why I am sober today. Built a better foundation with my marriage. Committed myself to change. Gained back an emotional clarity that took me months to find and uncover. Mental clarity is fleeting but I think this is more my personality than anything else
. There is no reason for me to resume drinking. There is every reason for me to resume sobriety. So, I am living. That is all. A year is really not much. Learning to sustain and to work through the years without a drink in hand is the ultimate goal. Each day is a new learning experience. SO, moving into this next year all I can say is that I will take it one day at a time. Things to do:
Read a book and then read another
Take a walk, many walks
Buy those Roller Skates
Dust off the sowing machine and teach myself to sow.
Continue educational goals
Save money
Learn the pottery wheel
Plant a garden this summer
Go Hiking
Find a swimming hole for when it gets really hot
Tell my loved ones that I love them on a daily basis
Let each day be a new day
Learn to forgive (which is harder than obtaining a top notch education)
Continue breathing in and out
Relax
Learn to cook a new dish
Continue saying "YES" to life
No more self defeating thoughts and behaviors
Write a gratitude list and then another and another
Carry on with being a member of a sober community
When it is bad, it will not always be that way. When it is good, it will not always be that way
Love myself like I do everyone else
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I really enjoyed your post, Mizzuno! I am trying to approach sobriety in a similar way: focusing on setting constructive goals and not getting too hung up on negative feelings and bad days that come and go like the weather... Really not easy sometimes but it's very encouraging reading posts from people like yourself, who have had a longer stint of sobriety, to help believe it will truly get brighter. Thank you!
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Ahhh....Haha! Okay, I am going to learn to Sew on the Sewing machine. Right? Right. Also, I have been known to sow many seeds in my past. I was once an Organic Farm Hand on a 200 acre farm. Is this sow and sew correct? Geez....this is why the top notch education is crucial. I feel bad for anyone learning English as a second language.
"But do you really want to sow? That sounds like a hard, dirty job! (Sow/sew) Sorry, I couldn't resist, just pulling your leg!
You rock!" (Leshar)
"But do you really want to sow? That sounds like a hard, dirty job! (Sow/sew) Sorry, I couldn't resist, just pulling your leg!
You rock!" (Leshar)
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