5 years, one day at a time
mergirl
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5 years, one day at a time
I haven't logged on in awhile, and I sit here overwhelmed by gratitude. It seems so dramatic to say the people on SR saved my life, but I believe it to be true.
I drank from 14 to 42. I took a lot of drugs in those 28 years. My parents/relatives/friends and husband drank to excess. I don't ever remember a time, except when I was pregnant, when I could make it through a single 24 hour day without changing my head, my entire adult life.
5 years ago, I logged onto this website drowning in the shame of my past, frozen by the terror of my future and in the kind of pain no drink could fix.
Today I am transformed. Freed. Healed.
Today I maintain my sobriety through the solutions I found to work in Alcoholics Anonymous, but I didn't get to AA til almost a year after I knew alcohol had turned on me. The Sober Recovery website was the guiding light that first tough year of sobriety.
Today I have no reservations. I have found that I prefer being sober through all situations, good and bad. My sober life has not been all rainbows and puppy dogs. In the last 5 years I have buried my husband who drowned drunk on our daughters birthday, I have been primary 24/7 care for my mother while she succumbed to brain cancer, I have lost jobs, friends and pets
but,I found it all more manageable being sober and present than the hard times ever were while using.
I have also been present for the amazing joyful events in life, the birth of my first two grand babies, finding a new partner who works a solid program, landing in the most amazing living situation in a location I would have never dreamed I could land in and most of all having faith in being connected, watching the lives of others transformed by recovery and the beauty of being of service to others.
It's so worth it.
I never thought I would stop drinking. I never though I would end up in AA. I never thought I would live down the awful things I had done
Those awful things I did drunk ended up being the best thing that ever happened to me. They made me realize I could not beat addiction on my own. They made me start seeking a solution outside of my own stubbornness, which led me here to this wonderful site. And what I learned here, when I was ready to hear it, opened up the door to a magnificent new life
Thank you, recovery rocks
I drank from 14 to 42. I took a lot of drugs in those 28 years. My parents/relatives/friends and husband drank to excess. I don't ever remember a time, except when I was pregnant, when I could make it through a single 24 hour day without changing my head, my entire adult life.
5 years ago, I logged onto this website drowning in the shame of my past, frozen by the terror of my future and in the kind of pain no drink could fix.
Today I am transformed. Freed. Healed.
Today I maintain my sobriety through the solutions I found to work in Alcoholics Anonymous, but I didn't get to AA til almost a year after I knew alcohol had turned on me. The Sober Recovery website was the guiding light that first tough year of sobriety.
Today I have no reservations. I have found that I prefer being sober through all situations, good and bad. My sober life has not been all rainbows and puppy dogs. In the last 5 years I have buried my husband who drowned drunk on our daughters birthday, I have been primary 24/7 care for my mother while she succumbed to brain cancer, I have lost jobs, friends and pets
but,I found it all more manageable being sober and present than the hard times ever were while using.
I have also been present for the amazing joyful events in life, the birth of my first two grand babies, finding a new partner who works a solid program, landing in the most amazing living situation in a location I would have never dreamed I could land in and most of all having faith in being connected, watching the lives of others transformed by recovery and the beauty of being of service to others.
It's so worth it.
I never thought I would stop drinking. I never though I would end up in AA. I never thought I would live down the awful things I had done
Those awful things I did drunk ended up being the best thing that ever happened to me. They made me realize I could not beat addiction on my own. They made me start seeking a solution outside of my own stubbornness, which led me here to this wonderful site. And what I learned here, when I was ready to hear it, opened up the door to a magnificent new life
Thank you, recovery rocks
inspiration.
So good to hear from you. You rock! Thank you for sharing your inspirational story. 
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wow. this is a fabulous post and it brought tears to my eyes.
Congratulations, and thank you for taking the time to post these words.
Inspirational indeed. And a re-affirmation of why I have chosen the sober path. Here at 66 days in, 5 years seems a long way off. But I want to live a long, rich life from 41 onward... and I know that sobriety is the best way to do just that!
Thank you
Congratulations, and thank you for taking the time to post these words.
Inspirational indeed. And a re-affirmation of why I have chosen the sober path. Here at 66 days in, 5 years seems a long way off. But I want to live a long, rich life from 41 onward... and I know that sobriety is the best way to do just that!
Thank you
You're awesome!!
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