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03-04-2014, 03:38 AM

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JBird100

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I'm back after all of the misery.

I can't believe how low I got on that totem pole. It was so painful. I don't want to go back there. I just want my life to go smoothly. I know that's unrealistic but it's got to be easier when sober. I hate all the stuff that's rollling around in my brain and just want it to stop. I can't drink it will only make it worse and I don't want to be that troll living under the bridge because that's what it will devolve into. WHY ME?

03-04-2014, 03:56 AM

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CODPlayer

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Welcome back

03-04-2014, 04:16 AM

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liss74

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Welcome back xxx

03-04-2014, 04:50 AM

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Originally Posted by JBird100

Why not you? That was the response I got for asking that so often. My stupid undisciplined body only wanted to escape the pain of living without alcohol by becoming more pained with the poison of my escape. And I thought I was reasonable bright.
I have since learned that alcoholism is a progressive dis ease and never becomes a disease we HAD and only gets worse if we continue to drink.
I started to get sober when I got honest with myself about my drinking which led me to acknowledge that if I don't pick up the first drink I won't have to get sober AGAIN. When the facts were ACCEPTED I began to get sober with a lot of work, which for many is a tough road to travel. Many years later I'm still working on it while I'm comfortable in my own skin. It does get much better if we help and let it.