Chilledice

I wish my A.V was a human sized monster doll, id punch it so hard in the friggin face, tie a chain around its neck drag its useless backside to the deepest darkest depth of hell and leave it there!!!

SORRY just had to vent lol been fighting cravings!!

FreeOwl

do you have a boxing gym or a Muay Thai gym near you? This is a powerful way to take out your frustration on that bastard while at the same time working on health and letting out the steam that can undermine sobriety.

Go beat on the heavy bag!!

Chilledice

I used to train in the martial arts on a regular basis, Muay Thai being my favourite right now tho as im only on day 5 im just utterly exhausted lol but soon I will start it back up again

FreeOwl

no excuses!!!! START TODAY!!! There is no tomorrow...

BruceSA

Keep the faith, Chilledice, you can do it.
B.

afloatsober

Know how you feel. But just remember that he hates it when you don't cave in and that each hour/day/week without a drink he gets a little weaker while you grow stronger.
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opentorecieve

My AV is waiting in hiding right now; I'm just so determined to kick this at the moment. But she'll be back oh yes she will. I will often write about her. I once wrote about locking her up in a cage and that was effective albeit a bit out of the box.

PurpleKnight

Frying pans can be usefull!!

Mel12

Crazy thinking, otherwise known as AV-chatter, hits me when I go to a restaurant at which I used to like to drink.

Here are two examples of TRULY CRAZY AV-chatter I routinely hear:

AV-hit-song #1: "How selfish I am not to drink! I have to have a drink so my friend who is drinking can be more comfortable at this restaurant get-together."

AV-hit-song #2: "I am nearly the only person in the room who is not drinking. My tip to the wait-staff will be insultingly low since I am not jacking up the bill with drinks as everyone else is doing. And the wait-staff is so underpaid! Where is my compassion?"

The worst part of it is that this kind of thinking actually seems to make sense in the moment. Scary stuff.

Nonsensical

Right!?!?! If another person lied to me and stole as much as my AV has the S.O.B. would die with my boot on his neck.

Here's a fun visual:
Abstinence from alcohol is the same as putting my AV in a box and plugging his airhole, sentencing it to slow starvation and death. A craving is my AV's way of struggling and screaming for mercy. Whenever I get one I gleefully say, SCREAM AWAY you little turd! If I let you out you'll just stab me in the back. Keep screaming, I want to feel YOU suffer for a change!

It's a little warped, but it makes me happy to turn a craving into vengeance against my addction.

freshstart57

FreeOwl

HAAH!!!! that's awesome

Dee74

I think it's funny all us old blokes get the Mean Girls Meme

I hope you're feeling better chilledice

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Chilledice

Is it weird that I don't even think she's hot? LOL

NewMe30

My AV is an adorable little kitten meowing at my laundry door. The more I feed it, the fatter and uglier and more annoying it gets. I want it to leave. I want it to stay next door. I don't care how cute it is!!