Yep.
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Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: uk
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This time I made it nearly 3 months without drinking. I was really proud of making this a sober year but I stopped being accountable. I didn't come here, I stopped AA, I started denying I have a problem. I caught myself romanticizing alcohol a couple times but I wasn't tempted at Christmas or NYE (we bought sparkling raspberry and ginger soda).
I'm doing better with going out on my own now so I got a job. I work around alcohol but the sight of it makes me sick so I just ignore it. I still have no friends so when coworkers asked me out I just wanted to be a normal person and go and have a cocktail.
4 days later, I was still drinking and missed worked. Nothing clicked in my head once to tell me to stop. I also stopped taking zoloft 2 weeks ago so when the anxiety started from alcohol leaving my system, I kept drinking. I haven't had a drink for only 9 hours so the anxiety is just awful. I'm actually sitting here praying for my normal anxiety problems to come back instead!
It's my 1 year wedding anniversary today and I've ruined it like everything else. All I want is a drink or for it to be tonight so I can have more sober hours and less anxiety.
Guys I've missed you. Thank you for always being here.
I'm doing better with going out on my own now so I got a job. I work around alcohol but the sight of it makes me sick so I just ignore it. I still have no friends so when coworkers asked me out I just wanted to be a normal person and go and have a cocktail.
4 days later, I was still drinking and missed worked. Nothing clicked in my head once to tell me to stop. I also stopped taking zoloft 2 weeks ago so when the anxiety started from alcohol leaving my system, I kept drinking. I haven't had a drink for only 9 hours so the anxiety is just awful. I'm actually sitting here praying for my normal anxiety problems to come back instead!
It's my 1 year wedding anniversary today and I've ruined it like everything else. All I want is a drink or for it to be tonight so I can have more sober hours and less anxiety.
Guys I've missed you. Thank you for always being here.
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Engerland
Posts: 897
Get back on the horse fella and try not to beat yourself up. Don't forget that it is an illness (not a badness) and one that you can recover from on a daily basis. I tried many times, and never failed because when i fell i got back up every time.If you want sobriety you can have sobriety, if you are prepared to put the work in.
You sound like you are.
So onwards and forwards.
Rootn' for you mate.
G
You sound like you are.
So onwards and forwards.
Rootn' for you mate.
G
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Midwest, USA
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When I was feeling bad from detoxing I ran .. miles. The discomfort you feel from running is pretty strong so it tends to override other bad feelings, and the endorphins help those feelings. Also it helps you sleep and keeps up your appetite.
Not running now, though.. Go away, -8 F, I am so tired of this winter.
Not running now, though.. Go away, -8 F, I am so tired of this winter.
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