Where I'm supposed to be or headed to crazy town?
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Where I'm supposed to be or headed to crazy town?
I know that I can be hard on myself and with that being said I sometimes feel like I am taking a step backwards in my recovery. I act out on my defects (angry, irritable), I get jealous, I feel hopeless, I obsess over alcohol and cigarettes or food or exercise. I obsess on what I am not doing or what I am doing..I literally can drive myself nuts sometimes! I really logically know that I will never "arrive" but lately I can't find peace with just letting myself be where I am at...Am I NUTS??Am I supposed to be further along? I haven't smoked in 7 months and have had bad cravings the past few days... and my sponsor today was like if you want to smoke so badly make a choice and stop driving yourself nuts LOL Oye vay...but I DON'T want to smoke, I just feel weird not having any crutch I guess. Thanks for listening!
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Quitforme, when I was reading your post, I thought of the book 'A New Earth' by Eckhart Tolle. It really helped me several years ago, to try to let go of all the stuff I was carrying, and to stay in the moment.
And, for me, I think we are all exactly where we are supposed to be on this journey.
And, for me, I think we are all exactly where we are supposed to be on this journey.
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Thank you Anna! I am in the middle of power of now by him but haven't picked it up in over a month...guess I should get back to it huh? haha Thanks for the reminder to try and stay in the present
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This is going to sound weird, but when it's really getting to you drink more water. I have discovered by accident, that many times when I'm frustrated or feeling overtired or cranky, I feel better within about 10 minutes after drinking a couple glasses of cold water.
Do things to distract yourself. I use an electronic cig for the times I really just have a major craving. I hardly ever use it, but just having it in my pocket helps a lot.
I find some weeks I just feel "stopped" and discouraged, but then it passes and it's fairly short lived.
Do things to distract yourself. I use an electronic cig for the times I really just have a major craving. I hardly ever use it, but just having it in my pocket helps a lot.
I find some weeks I just feel "stopped" and discouraged, but then it passes and it's fairly short lived.
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Originally Posted by quitforme79 
I know that I can be hard on myself and with that being said I sometimes feel like I am taking a step backwards in my recovery. I act out on my defects (angry, irritable), I get jealous, I feel hopeless, I obsess over alcohol and cigarettes or food or exercise. I obsess on what I am not doing or what I am doing..I literally can drive myself nuts sometimes! I really logically know that I will never "arrive" but lately I can't find peace with just letting myself be where I am at...Am I NUTS??Am I supposed to be further along? I haven't smoked in 7 months and have had bad cravings the past few days... and my sponsor today was like if you want to smoke so badly make a choice and stop driving yourself nuts LOL Oye vay...but I DON'T want to smoke, I just feel weird not having any crutch I guess. Thanks for listening!
Booze is a crutch as well.
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