17 days in...My honeymoon is over
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17 days in...My honeymoon is over
At first I started going to AA meetings and everything was fine. I thought, "Man, this is a breeze!" Not so much now. I'm finding now that when ever I get sad or depressed I have the urge to turn to the very thing that got me in the mess I'm in, in the first place. This is hard...
Glad to meet you sir. We promise it won't feel like this forever. It gets easier & better as you get some sober time behind you. You don't want to go back to that old, miserable situation - you can do this!
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I've found sobriety to be a lot of hard work. I carve out time most days to exercise, meditate, write in my journal, read posts in SR, etc. All my demons were waiting for me when I finally put down the bottle and all the drugs. The hard part has been dealing with and silencing their constant mental chatter and getting past the physical weight of depression. There's light at the end of the tunnel ... there really is. Congratulations on 17 days. You should be *really* proud of accomplishing that. Hang in there and keep posting.
I've found sobriety to be a lot of hard work. I carve out time most days to exercise, meditate, write in my journal, read posts in SR, etc. All my demons were waiting for me when I finally put down the bottle and all the drugs. The hard part has been dealing with and silencing their constant mental chatter and getting past the physical weight of depression. There's light at the end of the tunnel ... there really is. Congratulations on 17 days. You should be *really* proud of accomplishing that. Hang in there and keep posting.
Yeah there seems to be cycles where you're feeling fine one day then other days it's hard. As time goes on the urges fade and your confidence increases.
Be careful of the stage where your AV tells you you've changed and moderation will now be possible. It won't.
Be careful of the stage where your AV tells you you've changed and moderation will now be possible. It won't.
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I hear ya, I've relapsed in the past in the post honeymoon.
I now have 24 days. Yesterday started out freak in awesome ,then it turned..wholly crap,rough.i made it.today was no picnick but better, I know the outcome of drinking again will be the same...most likely worse.my sickness doesn't care.this morning I had24 days, by my eve meeting it felt like 27 days. Nope still the same day..my honeymoon is over and time is seeming to crawl.im going to wake up tomorrow and read my daily reflection, open my self up an do it again.
I now have 24 days. Yesterday started out freak in awesome ,then it turned..wholly crap,rough.i made it.today was no picnick but better, I know the outcome of drinking again will be the same...most likely worse.my sickness doesn't care.this morning I had24 days, by my eve meeting it felt like 27 days. Nope still the same day..my honeymoon is over and time is seeming to crawl.im going to wake up tomorrow and read my daily reflection, open my self up an do it again.
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At first I started going to AA meetings and everything was fine. I thought, "Man, this is a breeze!" Not so much now. I'm finding now that when ever I get sad or depressed I have the urge to turn to the very thing that got me in the mess I'm in, in the first place. This is hard...
Just going to meetings does not keep any one sober.
You have to work the steps, right away. Do not delay.
It is and was by far the scarest thing I have ever done. Once you can get thru this you will find that it gets easier to do things you never thought you would do. I have found that is the case for me!
Hang in there, the end rewards are so worth it when you really start getting better mentally and physically.
Hang in there, the end rewards are so worth it when you really start getting better mentally and physically.
There are other paths to sobriety than AA. If you think it might not be working for you it might be worth your while to investigate some other things.
Best of Luck on Your Journey!
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