Weasel1966

If you're in recovery then most likely have had dreams of drinking or drugging or any other debauchery of taste.

When I first started to treat this as a problem I had dreams and loved them. In my dreams I did the things I wanted to do awake with some excitement to them.

Last night... I was offered my DOC. Crack. Even had the pipe I liked. And my first reaction, albeit not really real, was hell no.

Got asked again and I got angry.

When we start saying no in our dreams I will take that as a small win.

Friggin odd how the mind works.

Stay strong folks! Say no day and night!!!

K

Olive1

You are awesome, Weasel!

PurpleKnight

Nah I'm still very much loosing the battles when I'm sleeping!!

. . . But awake I'm winning the war!!!

Jillian2563

That's great news! That's what I'm finding is the hard part with my husbands addiction. There are constantly people around offering. Congratulations!

jeeves

Nice, good job! Whenever I'm around crack and get tempted to use, I just think of those horrible comedown and cravings opposed to fantasizing about the high. Then when you see your friends coming down, you feel great that you did partake.

Raider

Great post. Hanks for sharing.

SillyString

Weasel, this is very interesting. The first time I tried to seriously quit, 4 yrs. ago - and had 4 months, I was very much white knuckling it, and jealous of those who could still drink. Back then, I had the drinking dreams all the time. During the dream, I'd be all happy - then I'd wake up in a panic because it was so real.

This time around, my mind set is totally different about the whole thing. I am now truly grateful I am off the roller coaster, and while I can feel a twinge or two of nostalgia about drinking in certain moments, I do not want to actually drink. I know how it will end, and I don't want to go through any of it again. I'm not mad at others who can, and basically, I'm not having an internal tantrum about it. This time, I've had exactly 1 dream about drinking in 46 days.

Weasel1966

SillyS... Congrats on 46 days and your 100th post!

Always so good to see you raider! Hope you are well today!

Jeeves.... Oh yeah. The coming down. Makes me want to crawl out of my skin. The worst thing. And with crack, as you know, you are coming down more than going up.

Jillian... That's tough. As a bystander it's just not easy when it not just you and him.

Purple! You rock! Keep winning!

I don't know Olive.... You might just be more awesomer!