Guilt
Oh that godawful guilt. It and I are strange bedfellows for sure.
I always found it helped me so much to offload it here.
Something so very cathartic about putting it in words, and putting it out there, help you realize that you are not alone, and chances are, whatever it is, one of us can trump it...
I always found it helped me so much to offload it here.
Something so very cathartic about putting it in words, and putting it out there, help you realize that you are not alone, and chances are, whatever it is, one of us can trump it...
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AO, thats exactly what it is. It's even hard to put how feel into words on here because I can't think!
Least, I have no alcohol left and am currently at work for the next 8hrs. Last night I went to bed and said I'd start fresh today then I woke up feeling like this. Nursing a hangover at work sucks...
Least, I have no alcohol left and am currently at work for the next 8hrs. Last night I went to bed and said I'd start fresh today then I woke up feeling like this. Nursing a hangover at work sucks...
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Kate, I want to let it go but keep thinking about it constantly. I feel like screaming on the inside. I've wasted another month, another week, another day of life doing this to myself.
The guilt/fear/shame/anxiety is chemically induced from the alcohol . Get through these rough 8 hours and go home and try to get some rest. Hydrate hydrate hydrate.
You never have to put yourself through this again.
You never have to put yourself through this again.
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Hi StayStrong,
What's done is done, there's nothing you can do about the past unless you have a time machine! The only choice you can make is what to do from here on. I feel guilt too about the things I've done whilst drunk and the impact it's had on my life and my partner, but it's done and you can only change the present.
What's done is done, there's nothing you can do about the past unless you have a time machine! The only choice you can make is what to do from here on. I feel guilt too about the things I've done whilst drunk and the impact it's had on my life and my partner, but it's done and you can only change the present.
Get out and actually do something to keep yourself occupied and away from drinking. Go for a walk, clean the house, cook something, whatever. Not only will it keep your mind focused on positive things, but it will show you that you can easily accomplish things without drinking. Sitting around feeling sorry for yourself only intensifies the guilt, it's a vicious cycle.
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Scott, thanks for the recommendations. I will definitely take a walk on my lunch break to hopefully feel a little better. Letting go of past mistakes is a challenge for me so its good to have a reminder that moving forward is the only healthy option.
turning point
and then so many times once I got home
I would start the drinking and drugs all over yet again
almost as if I had forgotten about my day from hell
I hope that this will be the turning point for you
sure does get better once we are not drinking
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MMB - That thought to just drink again to not feel these feelings crossed my mind. Posting on here and getting some feedback is helping me keep in mind that option will never give me the life I want. I don't want to feel like this again tomorrow. Thanks
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SeaScape - I will sign in for the 24 hour club. The thoughts of the "relief" I'd feel from another drink tonight have been fairly strong this morning so I've been reaching out for support on SR and a close family member as well. I absolutely do not want to have these feelings tomorrow.
I thought I was an anxious, guilt ridden, weak and wobbly hot mess.
Turns out, after a few months, Im finding out I'm a pretty tough broad. And gentle to boot.
But you gotta put the bottle down for the fog to start to lift. Otherwise its just a never ending cycle of doom and gloom.
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