One month... Does It ever stop???
One month... Does It ever stop???
Day 30...
I made it!!!!!
Still doing my head in.............................
but I manage to get through a month and a birthday sober!!!
I have been given as a present 2 bottles of wine...
offered several times drinks... pot... I throw pills away...
my toilet must me so drudged...
One night even in the sea I through a box of benzo and it *** floated!!!
I hate to see people drink...
Well one slip one night with pills and I nearly burst my liver said my doc...
but apart from that I have not touched a thing!!!
I am just hopping the cravings will not last forever...
I cannot live like this..Is a constant fight!!!
It is so hard to control:
Half your head tells you do it! do it! you want it...! You can not cope take it!
The other side says: Not even one or you loose it!!! you will go back in the circle.........
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Just amazed I am lasting!!!
I can not **** it again!!!
DOES IT EVER STOPPPPPP????????????????
I made it!!!!!
Still doing my head in.............................
but I manage to get through a month and a birthday sober!!!
I have been given as a present 2 bottles of wine...
offered several times drinks... pot... I throw pills away...
my toilet must me so drudged...
One night even in the sea I through a box of benzo and it *** floated!!!
I hate to see people drink...
Well one slip one night with pills and I nearly burst my liver said my doc...
but apart from that I have not touched a thing!!!
I am just hopping the cravings will not last forever...
I cannot live like this..Is a constant fight!!!
It is so hard to control:
Half your head tells you do it! do it! you want it...! You can not cope take it!
The other side says: Not even one or you loose it!!! you will go back in the circle.........
A
Just amazed I am lasting!!!
I can not **** it again!!!
DOES IT EVER STOPPPPPP????????????????
If it didn't get better I don't think there would be anyone here posting Aiko
It does get better
I had to tell my friends I was quitting tho, or I never would have quit - there was always a bottle of beer or a bag of weed waiting for me somewhere.
Congratulations on your sober time
D
It does get better
I had to tell my friends I was quitting tho, or I never would have quit - there was always a bottle of beer or a bag of weed waiting for me somewhere.
Congratulations on your sober time
D
Great Job on 30 Days Sober. Yes, it does get better. However, (for me anyway) there is still cravings from time to time during certain occasions and holidays. I just have to keep reminding myself that I cant drink like normal people. Eventhough my mind will try to tell me I can drink just one because I'm better now, I will always be an alcoholic for as long as I live and I will probably continue to have cravings for years to come. Keep Going Aiko it does get better.
I quit just so it wouldn't get worse. We become willing to go to any length. At one point during my using days, I'd do what ever take what ever to change the way I felt, because I didn't want to feel.
I've gained years of physical sobriety but that's not enough. I have to have emotional sobriety to go along with it.
I've gained years of physical sobriety but that's not enough. I have to have emotional sobriety to go along with it.
Thank you!!! For all your advice and support!!!
It just some days just drives me mad...
Is a constant No Thanks!
Spain has a drinking culture.
I have access to anything...
Only my close friends know, not even my family know.
I am trying to keep bussy 24 x 7 cos when i stop my head starts run run run!!!
When i have an argument or conflict it gets really really bad...
Just starting to wonder ir I am going to be like this always!!!
I cann't even have medication for my kneck that hurts!
I keep saying hang on longer!!!
But some days the waves get too high!
Wish I was normal...
And did not have this need to take!!!
I just don't want to feel!
But that has a high price!!!
I will keep straight and fight my head!
Thank u for all your support is most appreciated!
Lots of Love and hugs
It just some days just drives me mad...
Is a constant No Thanks!
Spain has a drinking culture.
I have access to anything...
Only my close friends know, not even my family know.
I am trying to keep bussy 24 x 7 cos when i stop my head starts run run run!!!
When i have an argument or conflict it gets really really bad...
Just starting to wonder ir I am going to be like this always!!!
I cann't even have medication for my kneck that hurts!
I keep saying hang on longer!!!
But some days the waves get too high!
Wish I was normal...
And did not have this need to take!!!
I just don't want to feel!
But that has a high price!!!
I will keep straight and fight my head!
Thank u for all your support is most appreciated!
Lots of Love and hugs
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