Serotonin

In a previous post I said I would stop counting days. Well this early in recovery it's super easy to know exactly how many days it's been. Day 4 for me (since I started making efforts to be sober) has been my hangup. The physical withdrawls are dissipating and I feel pretty good..... Here is where my AV says, "hey it's ok to drink and smoke pot one more time. Just for today. You've been so good." That one more time turned into a 15 day binge last time. Literally less than an hour sober each day. Wake up, buy booze, get high binge eat and passout. Repeat. Yuck.
Well not this time. This time will be different. I don't know how to explain it, but I feel better this time. I like being sober. I like waking up remembering what I did before I passed out. I like the energy I have. I like not being hungover. I like having productive plans for the day. I like myself this way. When I drink I hate myself, I cry, I feel hopeless. Today I feel hopeful and want more of it.

That's all. Thanks.

Anna

I'm glad you're feeling good.

Raider

Great news!!!

Ghostlight1

great going. Just keep remembering how you feel when you use and the day after. That helps keep me sober.
Best to you.

matt4x4

Yeah, that doesnt really help at all. I remember how I felt and didnt care.

least

You're doing great! Keep on keepin' on.

Toffee1

Waking up sober and hangover free is something to savour and enjoy. Glad you are doing so well.

Charlie117926

I have been offline for a couple of weeks Serotonin:

I hope you are many days in (even if your not counting). Very happy to hear you are doing it!!!

I am praying for you brother

serious

keep going. you're off to a good start

KateL

Glad you're feeling better xxxx

Aarryckha

Keep going! You can do it! I read a thread on one of the other forums here about counting vs not counting and I think that counting in the beginning, at least for me, is a good thing. It's great waking up and not feeling like crap.

I'm proud of you!

PurpleKnight

Keep pushing through!!

deeker

Hope u come back to the 24 club. Maybe counting days is good. Makes you think twice b4 giving up your date of sobriety.

toddle118

I count because each time i tick the calender it shows another day i beat it, and gives me proof i can do it, find it helps

Shoshie8

I'm counting - for now anyway. I quit on March 8th which is why I stuck an eight after Shoshie. Feel that if I don't count, I'll get complacent. And I think milestones are going to be important to me as part of my recovery - I love reading milestone posts on here, they're really motivating for me.