charliesangel23

So my beautiful daughter turned 14 on Valentine's Day. I spent yesterday talking her and 10 friends to the movies and a sleepover. It was so wonderful to see her smile and laugh. It filled my heart so much.
But at that same time, all I could think was her dad isn't here. This is the first birthday without him. How could drugs be more important than this, Seeing her grow and celebrating that with her.
And then I thought, soon it will be the first school performance without being a couple, and then the first easter, and etc.
When will it feel normal again? Probably never.
Our family was so beautiful......how did this happen to us?
Drugs are so unforgiving and devastating. And for the family members and loved ones there is no defense.
I've never touched a drug in my life, and yet, drugs have taken so much from me.

LoveMeNow

I could have written your post. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

May God hold us close!!

Chino

My qualifier is my daughter so I know I'm coming from a different place than you.

My family found a new normal. We had to let go every expectation, including all the reasonable ones. In hindsight, I felt normal again when I felt safe and comfortable in my own skin.

ShootingStar1

From my experience, leaving and divorcing my AH of 20 years, it never feels the same again, but "normal" gets re-defined. And the new "normal" for me has a great deal of serenity and peace in it, and I cherish that even as I mourn the loss of what was once so valued.

ShootingStar1