Struggling Tonight
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: california
Posts: 118
Struggling Tonight
I am about to make it to day 4. I had a major trigger tonight on the way home from work. I bought my bottle of wine and I am sitting here about to open it, wanting to pour it down the drain and wanting to drink it. I am so conflicted and helpless........This sucks more than anything! Here is to pouring it down the drain without taking a 'sip" which leads to another and another and another.....
Adventures In SpaceTime
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: Ottawa, Canada
Posts: 5,827
Early sobriety is an awesome challenge so congrats on your 4 days. 
Your doing the right thing to pour that wine out too.
Addiction ambivalence is a tough time in the early days, as you already know for yourself. Your not struggling for nothing though, and all your efforts now will pay back to you later. Hang in there.
Your doing the right thing to pour that wine out too. Addiction ambivalence is a tough time in the early days, as you already know for yourself. Your not struggling for nothing though, and all your efforts now will pay back to you later. Hang in there.
Member
Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: CA
Posts: 648
Originally Posted by kcbf 
Thank you. As I pour it out my dad will be proud of me I suppose. Here it goes.....I should be proud of me. 4 days is as long as I have made it in YEARS. I need SR!!!!!
. You should be very proud of yourself. Many people are here to support you.
Member
Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: Missouri
Posts: 133
Well done on Day 4, kc! Let the wine go down the drain. You don't need it. You'll feel so much stronger knowing you faced that trigger without falling back on your addiction. I'm so proud of you! I know it's hard but you can totally do this. Let's see what Day 5 looks like, eh? Brighter days await you, sweetie. xo
Member
Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Arkansas
Posts: 26
It gets better. I'm at Day 32 and I can already tell a big difference. I did the same thing. On day 3 or 4 I bought a can of beer. Ended up not drinking it but sticking it in the fridge.
For some reason knowing it was there didn't make me want it as bad if that makes any sense. I ended up tossing it out after the second week.
Good luck and keep it up!
For some reason knowing it was there didn't make me want it as bad if that makes any sense. I ended up tossing it out after the second week.
Good luck and keep it up!
Faith and reason
Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: London
Posts: 941
Good on you for deciding to pour it out kcbf. On day 1 after my last relapse I found a half bottle of rum and just poured it straight out. I know that if I'd kept it around I would have eventually drunk it and I might still be drinking now, nearly seven months later. Or I might have drank myself to death already. So way to go!
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
