dasautobatgirl

I shouldn't have made the trip to Colorado, but I did. Not blaming anyone but myself for my actions

DesertArizona

What did you fall off with?

least

You know what to do. Get right back on the wagon.

ScottFromWI

Glad you came back. Any plans for what you might do differently this time around?

Thepatman

Don't beat yourself over it. Try to learn from this.

1newcreation

Welcome back; do you need aa or na?

dasautobatgirl

myself and a bottle of gin

Anna

I'm glad you're back and you have learned something important.

dasautobatgirl

i have an appointment with a therapist who specializes in substance abuse. unfortunately i am horrible in group settings, such as AA.
but what will i really do differently? still trying to figure that out. save myself instead of others would be a small start

Dee74

I encourage you to post when you need help dasautobatgirl.

The gang here at SR is brilliant at helping us make good choices over bad ones

D

PurpleKnight

Chin up and keep pushing forward!!

DesertArizona

The best advice I have is to try to associate alcohol/drugs with negative feelings. That seemed to be the only thing that really helped me quitting the drugs I've quit so far. Take some time each day and concentrate on all the horrible consequences and feelings that alcohol caused. Or smell something really smelly and disgusting whenever you think about drinking. They do that with pedophiles and other obsessive disorders. I'm convinced that's the key to stopping addiction, associating it with very negative feelings.

kflee

Glad you are back. Hope Colorado was a nice vacation.Most important is that you hopped in that wagon and came back. Many don't make the trip back once they fall of the wagon, at least not as immediate as you did. It seems that the gang at SR is glad you are back. I can make it through a rough day just knowing that.

kflee

"Not blaming anyone but myself for my actions'

I love how your first thoughts are not to point fingers at others for your actions. That was a hard one for me the last year.

dasautobatgirl

being new to SR, I'm not always sure what I can and cannot post. Ie., in AA you can't be an active alcoholic and attend meetings. I respect and understand the reasoning behind that. however, when you attend meetings with recovery graduates who tell the same rock bottom story again and again ...

1newcreation

Was somewhat same being a little shy @ mtgs in the beginning. But then I realised we are all a bunch of sick drunks working at a common solution to stay sober one day @ a time. Won't say it's impossible to stay sober on you're own but it's VERY difficult. I love SR however I need to correspond w/ others too. Make some friends w/ few ladies @ mtgs & go from there. No need to say a word if you don't feel like it. As time goes, you'll flower out as a petal. Sobriety is too important to put down & walk away from
Best wishes on therapist appt

Dee74

I've never heard that about AA - in fact it's pretty much the opposite:
“The only requirement for A.A. membership is a desire to stop drinking.”

In any case, there wouldn't be much point us not allowing active drinkers here

The 'rules' here are simple - if you want or need help - just ask.

D

lrj

I think sometimes group settings only work for certain people. I always just looked around the room and thought I had nothing in common with those people. Neither the drinkers, nor the recovered.

In the end, I just keep myself darn busy

dasautobatgirl

i did think, maybe i'll miss my flight ... but not for a second did i consider not coming back. does that really happen? i've learned you don't have to be the worst alcoholic ... the "at least i'm not THAT bad" to feel or act like a bag of s**t dust.
thank you, you're message meant a lot.

dasautobatgirl

i think i just fell in-love ... joking of course. but you did hit the nail on the head.