I'm back
I'm back
I started drinking again a little before the Holidays. I've been drinking rum, wine, beer non stop for 6 weeks...
I am not going to go into details, we all know how it goes...
I am exhausted, constantly ill, ashamed, and broke...
For the past week I've been cutting down, mostly because I am scared of seizures and stuff if I quit drinking cold turkey.
I even managed to stay sober for 24 hours, twice.
But I can't seem to stop completely.
I miss being sober, and at the same time I am terrified of never having another drink. Or maybe I am terrified of failing again?
Please pray, send me good vibes, whatever might help. I need it.
Thank you!
I am not going to go into details, we all know how it goes...
I am exhausted, constantly ill, ashamed, and broke...
For the past week I've been cutting down, mostly because I am scared of seizures and stuff if I quit drinking cold turkey.
I even managed to stay sober for 24 hours, twice.
But I can't seem to stop completely.
I miss being sober, and at the same time I am terrified of never having another drink. Or maybe I am terrified of failing again?
Please pray, send me good vibes, whatever might help. I need it.
Thank you!
I'm glad you're back too Patricia
I was terrified of both things but I knew that the way to go was forward...I already knew where drinking led me.
maybe. I was scared of that too....but I realised all I ever had to do was to stay sober today - that seemed achievable to me...and it was
you can do this Patricia
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I miss being sober, and at the same time I am terrified of never having another drink.
Or maybe I am terrified of failing again?
you can do this Patricia
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Hi Patricia,
I had to take the 'never drink again' off the table. It upset me too much to think that I could never, ever drink again. Never seemed a long time.
Once I stopped worrying about the never again, I just committed to today. Just today. I will not drink today.
After a couple of years, I still thought perhaps I would have a drink on my
80th birthday....just for grins.
Now that I have a few more years I don't even think about the never.
I don't drink. That is who I am now.
Baby steps and deep breaths.
You can do it.
I had to take the 'never drink again' off the table. It upset me too much to think that I could never, ever drink again. Never seemed a long time.
Once I stopped worrying about the never again, I just committed to today. Just today. I will not drink today.
After a couple of years, I still thought perhaps I would have a drink on my
80th birthday....just for grins.
Now that I have a few more years I don't even think about the never.
I don't drink. That is who I am now.
Baby steps and deep breaths.
You can do it.
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I'm new here...but I sure get the impression no one around here will shame you if you falter on your soberity journey. So take that fear out of your mind. Some times having a support system that will catch you if you fall makes all the difference. It makes you not afraid the fly. Kwim?
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Welcome back Patricia! I too started back drinking at the holidays (after 3 months) and that progressively led back to drinking everyday...but I'm now on day 6 and refuse to look back...
You can do it. I can do it. I believe in us both! I will keep you in my prayers...Hang in there!
You can do it. I can do it. I believe in us both! I will keep you in my prayers...Hang in there!
Thank you guys...what would I do without this forum?!
I feel much better right now.
I didn't open that second beer, I came here instead. I am so glad I did.
It's the small victories that matter right?
Just for today. Just for tonight. I think I can do this
I feel much better right now.
I didn't open that second beer, I came here instead. I am so glad I did.
It's the small victories that matter right?
Just for today. Just for tonight. I think I can do this
Patricia68, back, glad you are here. My biggest weapon against cravings is to read post here on SR with "intention", that is to say I pay attention to what's in them. This is what you said Patricia,
I felt exactly the way you do, however, 3 years 6 months sober, all the terror, fear, anxiety, and junk has gone away with time. I honestly believe if you just suffer through it all for some period of time, ever how long that is, all the problems concerning drinking will go away. Rootin for ya.
I miss being sober, and at the same time I am terrified of never having another drink. Or maybe I am terrified of failing again?
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