bookmaven

When the snow started flying so did I - so cold, so much snow to shovel, all I wanted was to get high and that leads to meeting my "friend" at the bar and next thing I know I'm in full blown relapse. This winter started early.

Does today count as my day one if I'm still buzzed at 9 AM from closing up the bar last night? (Today at 2 AM) 😟

Now I can't go to work. Another day of lost wages due to being too "sick".

I hate that I did this to myself!

So here we go, me and my alcoholic brain.

Now I know why they say recoverING.

2bhappier

I have had so many day 1s. I was thinking I'd get kicked off this forum! But I wasn't and I just got support. It is a tough road but it must be achievable because people do get to be sober. Keep on trying.

misterritter

I know this feeling, but we had some help from our alcoholic brains.

Starting over is much better than to stop trying.

least

Welcome back. I count my day one as the first day without a drink. There is lots of help, both her and in real life. I hope we can help you stop drinking for good.

12mancan

Keep trying, I think all of us have gone through numerous day 1's!

Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

bookmaven

Indeed! How many DO OVERs did I beg for as a kid, lol.

ClearMind

From my experiences, there's nothing worse than a day one. The positive thing is, though, that as the day counter gets higher, the going gets easier.

KateL

Just start over and keep wrapped up warm x

bookmaven

Hey everyone, I forgot to put in my post that I'm happy about starting over. I came back to SR to celebrate!

not2late

I'm on day one again too. Sitting on the doctors office..I'm ok but acid reflux was so bad i hope i havent harmed my esophagus. I'm done. I need to stay here longer this time. I'm looking forward to feeling better..everyday. I know I cannot have not one sip.ever. thanks to everyone for all the kind words and just being here. Thanks bookmaven for helping me feel comfortable enough to post again.

lovesymphony

I'm so glad you wrote this. I keep having day 1s but I was afraid if I mentioned it people would think I'm not serious about quitting and ignore me....I have improved and the days are much fewer and farther between, plus stopped the morning and all day binging. But I get off work at 1145pm now, right before the alcohol stores close.....i can drink without worrying about heading back. I feel insomnia hitting and get weak sometimes. It didnt work this last time, and i keep discovering its not the worst thing in the world to be tired..its not worth the risk of staying alcoholic, but still.....sigh sometimes