anchorbird

I am just down right exhausted with struggling. I give up trying to convince myself I am not an alcoholic when it is obvious that I am. The last 2 weeks have been terrible and this morning when I woke up I still felt exhausted, physically and mentally. Something happened though, I was able to tell myself that my life doesn't have to be this way, I don't ever have to pick up a drink again. What a relief came over me!!! Why didn't I have this feeling before?? I think before I was always feeling like I was giving something up, now I know I am just gaining by not drinking. What a relief!!!

alphaomega

One of the best things I ever did for myself was give up the fight.

I let alcohol win. Totally powerless. It beat the snot out of me every single time.

There was nothing left in me. But me.

Then I started to fight for that.

Spinach

Have no shame in a name , keep going life is so much easier once you give yourself the chance.
Good luck.
John.

ScottFromWI

Congratulations. If you can keep yourself true to this realization, everything will be different from now on, in a good way.

foolsgold66

I think this is kinda important, AB, and I am glad you are feeling it. There's like a million AA bumper stickers and I hate most of them, but 'surrender to win' has some meaning for me. I don't take a 'traditional' meaning from it, my take is weird, its like the end of the movie wargames, the computer realizes the only way to win is not to play the game at all. I wish you well.

alphaomega

This.

One thousand times over, this.

Ruby2

Way to go Anchorbird! You are gaining by not drinking.

Olive1

Brilliant!

ClearLight

Thanks for sharing that. It's actually inspirational!

least

I hope we can help you stay sober for good this time.

MamaGoat

Surrender is a beautiful thing

KateL

That's great to hear, Anchorbird xxxx

foolsgold66

I heart me some anchorbird. I'm attached to you because you are struggling and on the positive side. Fly dammit.

anchorbird

Thank you all SO MUCH. Boy, how relieved I feel.