JackieC

Hi all, Day 36 here. I have dreams pretty regularly about drinking and it sounds like a lot of you do, too. In the dreams, I'm either considering drinking or in a few dreams (nightmares), I actually do drink. The way I feel after I do that in the dream is just a crushing sadness and disappointment. Then, when I wake up, I have lingering guilt about the dream since the sadness is so palpable to me even once I've woken up.

I am so grateful for those dreams because they give me a glimpse of how I would feel if I did have a drink. In the past, I've tried to stop drinking because I didn't want to "get caught" drinking or get in trouble somehow. But now I've reached this point where I don't drink because I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror. When I start having cravings, I imagine the next morning when I get out of bed and go to the bathroom and there's the mirror. Looming. And how I would avoid my own eyes.

My three favorite parts of the day are:
1. Waking up to another day of sobriety feeling good and free and alive.
2. Being able to look in the mirror and meet the eyes of someone I am proud of instead of someone I am ashamed of.
3. Right before I go to bed at night when I put my head on the pillow and know I've made it through another day.

Lots of rambling. Thanks for listening, friends.

Jackie

seahorse661

Those are some of my best parts of the day too!

justinJustQuit

Same here. Especially the dreams. Sometimes when I wake up I will almost feel dizzy like I did when I was still drunk / transitioning to hangover in the past.

PaulinaPolitely

1newcreation

Didnt hear any rambling except a thankful heart voicing gratefulness

Hearts

Going to bed and waking up sober/ not hungover/ with withdrawals really are the best times of day.

Itchy

Thanks for the reminder!