Rainbowdust1

Hello, my name is Amanda and I am new to this site. I guess I will begin by telling you a little about myself. I'm 33, been with my partner over 9 years, possess an associates degree, will graduate with my bachelor's in psychology this may, and I love pills (pain pills). It's all I think about. I know that it's wrong, but I cannot seem to beat it. My gf and I fight over this constantly. I love her and do not mean to hurt her and something has to give. It's getting to the point that I am withdrawing once a month and my tolerance is extremely high. I function well, that is I am a 4.0 student and active with my family. I just have this impending doom over me constantly. Pills feel good for the first thirty minutes, then the guilt sets in. Mental illness runs in my family and also addiction. My gf has no tolerance for addiction, and I need to get my life back on track. I want to discover the root of my addiction and work through it. I mean I want to be sober, but I want to be healthy in all aspects of my life.

Dee74

Welcome Amanda
you'll find a lot of support and understanding here

I dunno - maybe finding the root of your addiction is not as important as doing something about it now?

Rainbowdust1

I definitely have to do something now, but I want to work on all of me ☺

Dee74

That will happen

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Rainbowdust1

Yes, I know. Thank you.

MythOfSisyphus

Welcome, Amanda! Good to have you with us.