bluncain

Hello

I'm in my twenty first day and I've been struggling, today is difficult.

Anxiety and general feeling of impending doom. Like I've messed up and everyone is offended - irrational since I've not. It's how I felt every morning when I drank, and it would drive me like a whipped horse straight to the bottle. And before I even opened the first I was thinking of second.

And I would awaken filled with remorse and shame.

I don't want to drink anymore.

The pain far out weighs the pleasure.

Thanks for listening

Dee74

Hi bluncain

I think those kinds of thoughts and feelings are very common.
Do you have any support besides SR?

D

bluncain

I been reading AVRT book and recovery stuff.

ChrissieB

Sorry to hear you are feeling low, 21 days is awesome, stick with it, it will get better. Good to post here rather than picking up. xx

autan

This will pass in a couple of days. I felt the same just a couple of days ago, when I hit three weeks sober, but it passed as quickly as it came on. Hang in there, your doing great.

Mags1

Hi bluncain, I found my emotions all over the place to start with.

The old adage, it does get easier.

Keep reading and posting...

21 days brilliant.

bluncain

Seems a few of us in the UK are up late, somehow that's comforting. Thanks

autan

Not for too long, I hope. (Yahhhnnn)

cusper

Hi Bluncain!
I completely understand your anxiety. I am newly sober as well. it will let up. I still have it but few and far between. Cut back on caffeine. That was a big trigger for anxiety. My anxiety started to flare up around 3 weeks after I stopped drinking and it feels better now... I am at 8 weeks. Hang in there. Also I found a snack of rice chips or some kind of healthy carb helped. Congrats on 21 days. It's an awful feeling I know because you can't pinpoint what the anxiety is. I think really it's chemical.

least

It's normal to feel that way at first. Give yourself more sober time to 'even out' your feelings. It will get better. Congrats on 21 days sober!

KateL

Well done on 21 days xxx

BoatDaddy

I had exactly the same experience. My best advice is not to dwell on it. Stay resolute in your commitment not to drink. Also staying active will speed up your "healing" process. I am 40 days now and it has gotten a lot better.

I believe we get so used to not really feeling or having a crutch and it feels somewhat lonely not to have that "friend" anymore. It's a path of self destruction and you've made the right choice. Congratulations!!!

Reider

Hey bluncain
Congrats on day 21. I am roughly on day 52 without a drink. Days between 20 to 24 the carvings were really tough. Then they were gone. Everything was good until sometime in the 30 day range, I got grumpy at every little thing. Then that went away. In the early 40 days the carvings came back strong again but not as strong as in the 20's. It lasted for a few days. Since then though I have really started to feel better all around. No cravings, sleeping better, happier, and more energetic. So hang in there. Like most people say on here, it does get easier as the time goes bye. Hope this helps.