Urge is strong
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Urge is strong
I'm on day 14. Feel pretty good overall. Head clearer and mood better but I'm really craving some vodka tonight. Just a small bottle. 200ml at most. Enough to get a good buzz but not get sloppy. Then I wont touch it for another two weeks. That isn't so bad is it?? That shows control does it not?
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Originally Posted by MightyFlea21 
Enough to get a good buzz but not get sloppy. Then I wont touch it for another two weeks. That isn't so bad is it?? That shows control does it not?
it wouldn't be too long before I would be in yet another blackout
but then again I'm alcoholic
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I hope you do not drink that vodka. It would mean you have to start over again. Do you really want to do that? I am just on day 2 and this is really hard for me. Starting over is hell. You are doing so well. Please keep it up.
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Noones gonna tell you thats a great idea Flea.
I think real control is about not drinking at all.
I don't see a difference between not getting drunk and 'getting sloppy'.
When I look back at the damage my addiction has caused me, giving into it, at any level, would not be a triumph.
I think real control is about not drinking at all.
I don't see a difference between not getting drunk and 'getting sloppy'.
When I look back at the damage my addiction has caused me, giving into it, at any level, would not be a triumph.
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No, I don't think that's a good idea at all. It will lead you back to that deep hole and it might be harder getting out of it the next time.
I hope you don't give in to that line of "reasoning".
I hope you don't give in to that line of "reasoning".
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Originally Posted by MightyFlea21
That shows control does it not?
People with control don't crave vodka. Not the way we do. If it's all you think about then it has control over you. You can't get control back by drinking.
Best of Luck.
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Originally Posted by MightyFlea21
I'm on day 14. Feel pretty good overall. Head clearer and mood better but I'm really craving some vodka tonight. Just a small bottle. 200ml at most. Enough to get a good buzz but not get sloppy. Then I wont touch it for another two weeks. That isn't so bad is it?? That shows control does it not?
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Now this is you AV talking. What are you doing for your recovery? Are you going to AA or SMART etc.? Are you doing AVRT?
This voice full of nonsense is not you it s your addictive voice. Detached yourself from it and just tell it: I do not drink and this is not negotiable.
The craving will go away once you recognize it for what it is.
This voice full of nonsense is not you it s your addictive voice. Detached yourself from it and just tell it: I do not drink and this is not negotiable.
The craving will go away once you recognize it for what it is.
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NO!!! The hardest thing for me--and based on stories in AA and on SR--is stopping again at all.
I have only 3 full days of sobriety--but it took me about 6 months to get even 1 day. So....
I hope you choose what works best for you...
I have only 3 full days of sobriety--but it took me about 6 months to get even 1 day. So....
I hope you choose what works best for you...
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Good choice.
One thing that helps me sort out the b.s. is to ask myself,"what would morning adee want?" Because 5pm adee wants to drink, but morning adee is always thrilled to wake up to another morning after a drink free day.
Might sound a little like a multiple personality disorder, but hey, it's working for me.
One thing that helps me sort out the b.s. is to ask myself,"what would morning adee want?" Because 5pm adee wants to drink, but morning adee is always thrilled to wake up to another morning after a drink free day.
Might sound a little like a multiple personality disorder, but hey, it's working for me.
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Awesome to hear you overcame it, and congrats on the 2 weeks!
I can tell you that I've tried that route. Even if I could manage to not drink for a week or set amount of time, I would still obsess over it and white knuckle it until that day came. In the mean time, I was flooded with reasons, fantasies, excuses, and etc of why I could indulge a little earlier then expected, I eventually lost the battle, then its back to everyday.
Glad this site worked out for you. Keep coming back, as they say
I can tell you that I've tried that route. Even if I could manage to not drink for a week or set amount of time, I would still obsess over it and white knuckle it until that day came. In the mean time, I was flooded with reasons, fantasies, excuses, and etc of why I could indulge a little earlier then expected, I eventually lost the battle, then its back to everyday.
Glad this site worked out for you. Keep coming back, as they say
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