Day 1 enough is enough
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: england
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Day 1 enough is enough
The realisation of death has finally hit me today, as i have came close to Rape, drug overdose, liver failure, being ran over or killed.
Yesterday i drank all day from 8 oclock and went into my town centre. i always just talk to random people because i have the confidence and will not hesitate to ask for a drink or drugs. until one day a homeless person took the better of me and pinched my purse leaving me with no money, this made me suacidal.
Yesterday i shoplifted for no reason, i guess a cry for help as i was then taken to hospital to be analised as apparently i said i was going to jump off a bridge.
Not being able to remember where things are on a daily basis and forgetting to feed the cats are all a result in my heavy drinking
If anybody else finds it hard to get up in the morning unless theres a drink on the table, please share your stories as i'm getting better, i refuse to lose everything for that lovely poison thats crippled my life.
I have been drinking sweet tea and water all day and feel ok. no withdrawels as of yet but its early...
Yesterday i drank all day from 8 oclock and went into my town centre. i always just talk to random people because i have the confidence and will not hesitate to ask for a drink or drugs. until one day a homeless person took the better of me and pinched my purse leaving me with no money, this made me suacidal.
Yesterday i shoplifted for no reason, i guess a cry for help as i was then taken to hospital to be analised as apparently i said i was going to jump off a bridge.
Not being able to remember where things are on a daily basis and forgetting to feed the cats are all a result in my heavy drinking
If anybody else finds it hard to get up in the morning unless theres a drink on the table, please share your stories as i'm getting better, i refuse to lose everything for that lovely poison thats crippled my life.
I have been drinking sweet tea and water all day and feel ok. no withdrawels as of yet but its early...
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: Toronto
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Yes I was the same. I have been battling this disease for the past three years. Previous to these three years and feel that I am on the winning side.
When I was crippling myself I had to keep a bottle of booze by my bedside. Just so every couple hours when I started to feel uncomfortable I could take a few shwigs. I would drink all day all night. I didnt have any feelings. I didnt care about anything. I hated myself and my life. And I as well had a tough time remembering anything. My short term memory was completely shot. It does get restored though.
Most important thing is to get sober and stay that way for as long as you can. And if you slip up, just get right back to being sober as fast as possible. Nobody is perfect. Dont beat yourself up. Your life will improve upon your sobriety. If you need get some medical help. Takes the edge off for sure.
All the best. We are all in this together. Life Will Get Better.
When I was crippling myself I had to keep a bottle of booze by my bedside. Just so every couple hours when I started to feel uncomfortable I could take a few shwigs. I would drink all day all night. I didnt have any feelings. I didnt care about anything. I hated myself and my life. And I as well had a tough time remembering anything. My short term memory was completely shot. It does get restored though.
Most important thing is to get sober and stay that way for as long as you can. And if you slip up, just get right back to being sober as fast as possible. Nobody is perfect. Dont beat yourself up. Your life will improve upon your sobriety. If you need get some medical help. Takes the edge off for sure.
All the best. We are all in this together. Life Will Get Better.
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Hi PennyLane - welcome
I spent 5 years of my life, not being able to get out of bed without a drink - I drank all day everyday. I nearly died.
SR helped me turn my life around. This year I'll celebrate seven years sober.
If I can do it, you can do it too - there's a ton of support and ideas here
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I spent 5 years of my life, not being able to get out of bed without a drink - I drank all day everyday. I nearly died.
SR helped me turn my life around. This year I'll celebrate seven years sober.
If I can do it, you can do it too - there's a ton of support and ideas here
D
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Welcome pennylane. I'm sorry for the pain you're feeling now, but this will pass and you can leave that old life behind.
We're so glad you joined us - you're no longer alone. I was drinking all day when I came to SR. I never dreamed I could live without it for even one day. I don't know why I clung to it, since I was miserable and sick - it hadn't been fun for a long time. Look forward to a brighter day - you can let go of it and be free.
We're so glad you joined us - you're no longer alone. I was drinking all day when I came to SR. I never dreamed I could live without it for even one day. I don't know why I clung to it, since I was miserable and sick - it hadn't been fun for a long time. Look forward to a brighter day - you can let go of it and be free.
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
Hi PennyLane - welcome
I spent 5 years of my life, not being able to get out of bed without a drink - I drank all day everyday. I nearly died.
SR helped me turn my life around. This year I'll celebrate seven years sober.
If I can do it, you can do it too - there's a ton of support and ideas here
D
I spent 5 years of my life, not being able to get out of bed without a drink - I drank all day everyday. I nearly died.
SR helped me turn my life around. This year I'll celebrate seven years sober.
If I can do it, you can do it too - there's a ton of support and ideas here
D
PennyLane all the best, wishing you a happier life and recovery.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Hi PennyLane - welcome
I spent 5 years of my life, not being able to get out of bed without a drink - I drank all day everyday. I nearly died.
SR helped me turn my life around. This year I'll celebrate seven years sober.
If I can do it, you can do it too - there's a ton of support and ideas here
D
I spent 5 years of my life, not being able to get out of bed without a drink - I drank all day everyday. I nearly died.
SR helped me turn my life around. This year I'll celebrate seven years sober.
If I can do it, you can do it too - there's a ton of support and ideas here
D
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Thanks so much for the welcome, i feel alot more together today and optamistic. I have a doctors appointment and am going to ask for some medication to help with withdrawel symptoms. can anybody suggest the best kind.
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Originally Posted by pennylane87
Thanks so much for the welcome, i feel alot more together today and optamistic. I have a doctors appointment and am going to ask for some medication to help with withdrawel symptoms. can anybody suggest the best kind.
You last question is definetley not one that should be asked here and any answers you might get should be discounted. That question is for your doctors only....
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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Hi pennylane, can't help singing the Beatles song when I wrote your name, lol x
Welcome to sr, it's brilliant here, lots of solid sane advice and experiences for us to learn from.
I just got in from work, was supposed to go to next to pick up a. Parcel then tesco on the way home but the urge to drink was so strong I had a battle with my av and went through the scenario of having a drink then one then one bottle, you get my drift.
I'm rambling on again, I do it often on here, it gets things of our chests when we are having a inner battle. Anyways, I went to farm foods instead, knew they had no booze but looked for any ex Xmas chocs with booze in, no luck, I'm pleased to say. I would've thrown em in the bin if I had bought them.
Such is life. It's a whole lot better the arguments I have etc than partaking of booze. X
Welcome to sr, it's brilliant here, lots of solid sane advice and experiences for us to learn from.
I just got in from work, was supposed to go to next to pick up a. Parcel then tesco on the way home but the urge to drink was so strong I had a battle with my av and went through the scenario of having a drink then one then one bottle, you get my drift.
I'm rambling on again, I do it often on here, it gets things of our chests when we are having a inner battle. Anyways, I went to farm foods instead, knew they had no booze but looked for any ex Xmas chocs with booze in, no luck, I'm pleased to say. I would've thrown em in the bin if I had bought them.
Such is life. It's a whole lot better the arguments I have etc than partaking of booze. X
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