Came so close to slipping
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Came so close to slipping
A pipe burst in my home today because of the cold weather. I was on my way to my bf's who lives out of town to drive him to the hospital tomorrow for a procedure. Thankfully my daughter was home and turned the water off so there isn't much damage. I came back home and the doc appointment had to be cancelled.
My body went into panic mode or something. I felt like every nerve in my body was on end. After the plumber left all I wanted was a beer. I'm not even a beer drinker but it sounded good. I was going over and over in my mind how I was going to pull off drinking a couple beers without my family noticing. My mind was going a million miles a minute. Its garbage night so thought about opening a beer while I took garbage to the curb. Or I could smuggle a couple beers in my jacket and take them in the basement to pretend I was assessing the water down there. I felt so trapped because I wanted one so bad but I knew that I couldn't bear the disappointment on my kids faces. Im almost to 4 months sober and didnt want to start on day 1 again. So I started sorting socks. Ha ha. The kids kept asking if I was alright and I said yes but the struggle I was going thru was horrible! Ended up putting on my Jammie's and playing with play doh with my granddaughter. I still feel jittery but am so thankful I didn't give in.
My body went into panic mode or something. I felt like every nerve in my body was on end. After the plumber left all I wanted was a beer. I'm not even a beer drinker but it sounded good. I was going over and over in my mind how I was going to pull off drinking a couple beers without my family noticing. My mind was going a million miles a minute. Its garbage night so thought about opening a beer while I took garbage to the curb. Or I could smuggle a couple beers in my jacket and take them in the basement to pretend I was assessing the water down there. I felt so trapped because I wanted one so bad but I knew that I couldn't bear the disappointment on my kids faces. Im almost to 4 months sober and didnt want to start on day 1 again. So I started sorting socks. Ha ha. The kids kept asking if I was alright and I said yes but the struggle I was going thru was horrible! Ended up putting on my Jammie's and playing with play doh with my granddaughter. I still feel jittery but am so thankful I didn't give in.
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It's amazing how being a drug addict can make liars of us all. I've never heard of an honest drug addict before. When I was in the depths of my addiction with alcohol, nothing would stand in my way of consuming my drug of choice - and least of all something as insignificant as the truth. Good luck!
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