Kris47

Well, I haven't even quit drinking all together but am starting to feel some shakiness. Not really shaking but feel my body on alert and anxious. Nothing I'm too worried about at this point but it is making me a little nervous because I recall last time vividly. I wish I were there again. And through it.

I'm down to two beers tonight. The beast is being satiated for now after my first one. I will not have any more than the 2nd one. I can do this. I know. Still can make you scared s-----ss. I want this so bad. I want my knee surgery next month. I want to be sober. But this beast wants something else.

Don't mean to be such a wimp. I mean I've been at this with my friend for over 33 years. He doesn't want to let me go. I have that love/hate relationship we all know too well. For now, I'm okay but worry about the next drawdown with him. Will he win?

Make me strong Dear God.

Kris47

hypochondriac

Have you got support Kris? I'd recommend talking to a doctor and making sure you have the right medical support as well as ongoing support to help you stay sober x

PurpleKnight

He's not going to win Kris!! . . . you're gonna win!!

Being scared is also natural, humans fear the unknown, or change, but in SR you have the experience of a legion of people who have come out the other side to draw upon!!

Kris47

Thanks guys.

I'm just starting to fall apart at the seams and I haven't even gotten to day I yet.

My BP is already up there. I'll call the doctor again tomorrow if I don't hear from him.

I know others have more problems than I right now.
sorry.

KateL

Don't apolgise, you are as important as everyone else x

Taking5

Kris go see the ER if need be. High BP while detoxing - and you are detoxing even if you have 2 beers - is very dangerous.

Dee74

Your problems are as important as anyone elses Kris

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foolsgold66

Yeah, talking to a Doc is never a bad idea. It can be a rough ride.

Kat60

Kris you ARE as important as everyone else and you are going through a tough time.

We are here to chat with all you need, but PLEASE go to the ER if things don't feel right.

Medical help will make this a whole lot easier in the first days!!!!

Lots of experience here in these rooms!!

EndGameNYC

One of the primary reasons that people stay in abusive relationships despite a lifetime's worth of hurt is that, on extremely rare occasions, the abused party gets a few stale crumbs, which turns out to be just enough to keep them going.

The same can be said of alcohol. I continued drinking long after I ceased to get any benefits from it, and despite the fact that my drinking only brought about increasing pain and suffering. Along with a great deal of collateral damage.

I apparently had to losing everything in order to stop. This isn't true for everyone. So, ask yourself, "What's it gonna take?"