Giving it another try
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Giving it another try
I found this site a while back but never posted anything. I firmly thought the last time I quit drinking was going to be my last. Had six weeks under my belt and never dreamed I would go back. Now here I am on day one after a 4 day bender. So very ashamed. Every single time I try to justify my drinking with the ol "it'll be different this time." It's never different.
Welcome NLB! This time can be different - it's so good to have you here.
I drank all my life. I was totally dependent on it when I finally quit. It was exhausting, depressing, and never fun anymore. I don't know why I clung to it for so long. It is wonderful to be free - and you can do it.
I drank all my life. I was totally dependent on it when I finally quit. It was exhausting, depressing, and never fun anymore. I don't know why I clung to it for so long. It is wonderful to be free - and you can do it.
Hi nlb
When the thot to pick up again try's to lodge in mind(which is now very rare) I simply ask myself "why would I want to bring back & relive that past?" & the answer so far has always been a resounding NO!
When the thot to pick up again try's to lodge in mind(which is now very rare) I simply ask myself "why would I want to bring back & relive that past?" & the answer so far has always been a resounding NO!
Well AA worked for me. I would suggest that you go to a meeting and perhaps just listen to what people have to say. It's a bit better if you say it's your first meeting, if you get a chance, but it's not necessary. That would be a HUGE step in the right direction IMO.
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I have gone to AA. I would always leave meetings and think to myself "I'm not a true alcoholic like these people." I could never come to grips with the fact that I indeed have a problem. Perhaps a different mindset would help.
At a meeting I go to we give out a white chips to people at their first meeting or coming back after a slip. One of my favorite guys there (been sober 21 years) collected about 12 white chips. He kept coming back and kept working on sobriety. You hang in there NLB. Sobriety is worth it.
PS: That doesn't mean you get 11 more relapses......alright:-)
PS: That doesn't mean you get 11 more relapses......alright:-)
Indeed. Accepting you have a problem is the start of addressing the problem. You are having a rational moment where you realized you have a problem with drink and want to quit. Commit to being sober and hang on to that vow when your addiction starts telling you that you don't have a problem.
IMO we are all a little like each other, at least in many respects. Listen for the similarities. If you do you will find some, and with that will come solutions. Listen long enough and you are bound to hear your own story from someone who is half (or twice) your age, a different sex and has a very different view of the world.
Doing something different means just that, you got to change it up, some how, some way. If not AA, or the way you did AA in the past, I still suggest you have a FIRM plan.
And I suggest you make it soon.
Doing something different means just that, you got to change it up, some how, some way. If not AA, or the way you did AA in the past, I still suggest you have a FIRM plan.
And I suggest you make it soon.
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