And just like that....
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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Join Date: Aug 2011
Posts: 2,887
And just like that....
...I logged my first sober holiday season !!!
Last week I thought I was going off the rails on a crazy train. I was PAWS-ing it up like it was my job. I sincerely thought I was either A. Completely losing whatever was left of my mind or 2. Going to fall of the wagon so hard I was going to get run over and dragged by it.
But thanks to this sanctuary, and my willingness to put it all out there, I managed to eek through that nightmare literally by the hair on my chinney chin chin (note to self: don't pluck peri menopausal chin hairs anymore. Those things are GOLDEN.)
And just like everyone said, it will lift as quick as it descends. And to fight for and protect that sobriety even if it means waiting it out in bed for a week. A month, a year, forever. Because the very worst sober day, trumps the best drunk one.
Aint that the truth...
Besides getting through a what turned out to be rather mellow Christmas, I'm really really grateful to not having a five day withdrawal period, worries about seizures, blood pressure through the roof and inexplicable anxiety.
I have a big and I mean GARGANTUAN challenge coming up. To which I'm sure you will all be privy to because I can't do this without you guys.
From the bottom of my very gently beating and happy heart, thanks to everyone for being here for me.
I made it.
Last week I thought I was going off the rails on a crazy train. I was PAWS-ing it up like it was my job. I sincerely thought I was either A. Completely losing whatever was left of my mind or 2. Going to fall of the wagon so hard I was going to get run over and dragged by it.
But thanks to this sanctuary, and my willingness to put it all out there, I managed to eek through that nightmare literally by the hair on my chinney chin chin (note to self: don't pluck peri menopausal chin hairs anymore. Those things are GOLDEN.)
And just like everyone said, it will lift as quick as it descends. And to fight for and protect that sobriety even if it means waiting it out in bed for a week. A month, a year, forever. Because the very worst sober day, trumps the best drunk one.
Aint that the truth...
Besides getting through a what turned out to be rather mellow Christmas, I'm really really grateful to not having a five day withdrawal period, worries about seizures, blood pressure through the roof and inexplicable anxiety.
I have a big and I mean GARGANTUAN challenge coming up. To which I'm sure you will all be privy to because I can't do this without you guys.
From the bottom of my very gently beating and happy heart, thanks to everyone for being here for me.
I made it.
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Join Date: Dec 2011
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Wonderful post and a good testament to what staying sober will do for your confidence if you stick it out! What a sense of accomplishment to make it through the holidays.
Best wishes and to more days feeling free and peaceful
Best wishes and to more days feeling free and peaceful
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Join Date: Jul 2013
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Yeah ain't it grand, woke this morning no crap to deal with( anxiety,shame,physical discomfort,potentially damaged relationships,ect,ect) just spent the morning finishing a great book( Neal Stephenson's Snow Crash, awesome read quirky science fic with some cool ancient history thrown in).
Why in the hell didn't i do holidays like this before! I'm sticking with this way !
Hope everyone enjoyed their's too
Why in the hell didn't i do holidays like this before! I'm sticking with this way !
Hope everyone enjoyed their's too
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Join Date: Nov 2012
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I am so grateful you are here. And PAWSing….new verb of the year! Way to go AO…you are so exquisitely honest in your highs and lows…you have a gift. And I know whatever challenge is ahead, you will get through it, and we will all be firmly at you side as you have been at ours!
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Alpha. I love your words. You are shining through the page so strongly. Yes, you made it through the holiday!!! You will also make it through this "BIG" thing that is coming up. I too, have a huge thing that I am not looking forward to. My sobriety is not in question, but I would rather play it safe and not go to this damn event. I can not pretend a way out of it. No way no how. Wish I could.
I am very happy for you AO. Now, we should use our tools and post here for this big stuff that is coming up. This will make a difference. I am here for you as well as the community of SR. Hugs to you!
I am very happy for you AO. Now, we should use our tools and post here for this big stuff that is coming up. This will make a difference. I am here for you as well as the community of SR. Hugs to you!
Great job!
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