thinking about quitting, Merry Christmas
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thinking about quitting, Merry Christmas
I spent half the day today reading posts on this site, and feeling frightened, but encouraged.
I'm 54 years old and a wine boozer. I started drinking wine at about 35 years old. For almost 20 years, I kept myself at two glasses a night 90% of the time, and 3-4 glasses the other 10% of of the time. But I NEEDED and LOVED the wine, and I always knew that I was in danger of a downhill slide. This year, I have begin that path downward. I start dating a guy who is an enabler, and frequently offers to "take me out for some wine." I've started drinking wine at lunch, as well as dinner. I've been drunk 4-5 times this year. I've experienced memory lapses. My love of wine, my need for it, is growing.
I haven't decided to quit, but I know I need to. I thought if I wrote this down, it would help me see things more clearly. I'm not drinking today. It's been good reading other people's stories. Merry Christmas to all of you.
I'm 54 years old and a wine boozer. I started drinking wine at about 35 years old. For almost 20 years, I kept myself at two glasses a night 90% of the time, and 3-4 glasses the other 10% of of the time. But I NEEDED and LOVED the wine, and I always knew that I was in danger of a downhill slide. This year, I have begin that path downward. I start dating a guy who is an enabler, and frequently offers to "take me out for some wine." I've started drinking wine at lunch, as well as dinner. I've been drunk 4-5 times this year. I've experienced memory lapses. My love of wine, my need for it, is growing.
I haven't decided to quit, but I know I need to. I thought if I wrote this down, it would help me see things more clearly. I'm not drinking today. It's been good reading other people's stories. Merry Christmas to all of you.
This website is amazing, just being around people who understand is a great source of energy and inspiration.
The thing is though, once you start thinking about is alcohol a problem or maybe it's become a habit, that's usually a sign that you've already concluded something might need to change, if so this is a great place for support!
Merry Xmas!
The thing is though, once you start thinking about is alcohol a problem or maybe it's become a habit, that's usually a sign that you've already concluded something might need to change, if so this is a great place for support!
Merry Xmas!
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This website is amazing, just being around people who understand is a great source of energy and inspiration.
The thing is though, once you start thinking about is alcohol a problem or maybe it's become a habit, that's usually a sign that you've already concluded something might need to change, if so this is a great place for support!
Merry Xmas!
The thing is though, once you start thinking about is alcohol a problem or maybe it's become a habit, that's usually a sign that you've already concluded something might need to change, if so this is a great place for support!
Merry Xmas!
I have been lurking on this site for months. I thought, "Just by reading on this site, I am keeping myself open to information. Keeping a discussion open, in my head." There is no such discussion in my sister's head, and it's scary to see. She says, "I don't have a problem, period." Even as she drinks herself to death.
Thank you for your support. It means a lot to me.
Welcome riverbluebell! It's great to have you here with us.
Very wise of you to see where this is going. Instead of reaching out for help I tried to use willpower to control what I drank. I soon found myself drinking all day - I was completely dependent on it. This won't be you.
Very wise of you to see where this is going. Instead of reaching out for help I tried to use willpower to control what I drank. I soon found myself drinking all day - I was completely dependent on it. This won't be you.
Welcome riverbluebell. Our stories are so alike, the wine in the evening, some nights more glasses than other nights, waking dry and parched with a headache and sometimes outright vomiting. I thought I was ok until I had a fright with a swollen ankle, I thought it was gout and I was terrified of my dirty little alcoholic secret getting out. It wasn't gout but the fright got me googling, I got here to SR and stopped drinking on March 9th this year.
At 58 my health has improved out of sight, all the niggling aches and pains have gone, the headaches, the pains in the back of my knees, the IBS, the reflux -- all gone and I'm energetic and well. This can be your story too.
At 58 my health has improved out of sight, all the niggling aches and pains have gone, the headaches, the pains in the back of my knees, the IBS, the reflux -- all gone and I'm energetic and well. This can be your story too.
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Welcome riverbluebell! It's great to have you here with us.
Very wise of you to see where this is going. Instead of reaching out for help I tried to use willpower to control what I drank. I soon found myself drinking all day - I was completely dependent on it. This won't be you.
Very wise of you to see where this is going. Instead of reaching out for help I tried to use willpower to control what I drank. I soon found myself drinking all day - I was completely dependent on it. This won't be you.
Thank you so much for your post. Merry Christmas!
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Welcome riverbluebell. Our stories are so alike, the wine in the evening, some nights more glasses than other nights, waking dry and parched with a headache and sometimes outright vomiting. I thought I was ok until I had a fright with a swollen ankle, I thought it was gout and I was terrified of my dirty little alcoholic secret getting out. It wasn't gout but the fright got me googling, I got here to SR and stopped drinking on March 9th this year.
At 58 my health has improved out of sight, all the niggling aches and pains have gone, the headaches, the pains in the back of my knees, the IBS, the reflux -- all gone and I'm energetic and well. This can be your story too.
At 58 my health has improved out of sight, all the niggling aches and pains have gone, the headaches, the pains in the back of my knees, the IBS, the reflux -- all gone and I'm energetic and well. This can be your story too.
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