Charliee

I want to drink or pull all of my hair out!! Why does this have to suck so bad, and I really don't care at all right now. I wonder if some people are trying to see if I will cave. Every dream I have had for the last week is about having that drink and it is starting to look like a great idea!!!

Inca

Hi there- Is there something you can do today to distract yourself? It's hard during the holidays to see the alcohol free flowing plus the added stress if family and gatherings.

Know that the feeling will pass if you can get through today. A meeting might be good today too. I'm planning to go to one tonight actually to share the holiday love with everyone.

alba67

Do you go to AA Charliee?

DarkDays

Read Jason Vale book.

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Kick-Drink-E.../dp/1845903900

Change the way you think.

Charliee

Distraction isn't working today, I am actually only focused on how to get out of here on my own and get myself just a few sips

PurpleKnight

Sitting in the house thinking about it might not be a good idea, any way of going outside into the fresh air for a few deep breaths, possibly maybe a walk in it?

It'll pass eventually, but you need to keep pushing through!!

Tiptree

Tell your AV to **** off and do whatever you need to do not to drink.

JaylaaKent

Well - if you are an "alcoholic", like myself, we don't have a "few sips" or just "one drink" - Try to think about what you're feeling - I drank a lot to have a good time when I was depressed, but inversely the alcohol hangover led to more depression, which led to more drinking - you get the picture. This is a crappy sh*tty holiday for me too - first one sober in a few years, I don't have my kids (they are flying in later), and I am thinking about all the crap that happened, what I don't have blah blah. BUT if it's the ONLY thing I do the next few days is stay sober - then that's enough. Try to figure out why you are feeling the way you do- think is taking a drink going to make it better? I think it might give a few hours of reprieve, then lead to a long time of regrets. I know for me it will.

Charliee

I am at the "I really don't give a s***" right now. I just want to be numb to it all!!

alphaomega

This feeling will pass. I know it sucks so bad when it's got you in it's grip. But think of how you will feel tomorrow. If you can just hang on.

Imabuleva

Do you really want to throw away 9, almost 10, months of sobriety?

Charliee

Yeah, I don't want a few sips, I want a few bottles. I don't see it passing anytime soon with the people I have around me right now

alba67

Hang on in there Charliee, your never alone.

Seabee

Just think of all the anxiety that will come later! Trust me, it's not worth it. I just trashed 6 1/2 years of sobriety. It isn't worth it.

Charliee

Nothing will make me feel better....not crying, not talking to them. I hate this, I feel so selfish

Louise82

The people you have around you now won't be there forever. Once they're gone just think how amazing you'll feel that you managed to stay sober throughout it all. Rooting for you!

Seabee

Is it a family gathering? Whats going on?

Marcella99

Charliee- I felt the same last and just wanted 1. Kept romanticizing how it was Xmas eve and everyone else was drinking and having fun. I ended up going for a walk and then made hot chocolate. Sometimes sugar takes away the craving. Was so glad when I woke up this morning and felt good. Don't give in- a few sips will lead to a slippery slope. Just keep posting. We're all in the same boat.

DJSid

Do you go to AA? If so do you have any AA buddies or a sponsor that you can call? Most towns have allot of meetings around the holidays, some even have 25 hours of meetings for Christmas and New Years. Im only three days in and I know how hard the cravings are. I went last night and this morning and Im going to hit another one this evening. Im sure you will feel better with the support that you can get at a meeting! Stay strong, you can get through this!

Carlotta

Separate yourself from your AV.
It wants to drink, It cannot wait to get out and grab a bottle.
Charlie has 10 months sober, goes to AA and post for support on SR. You want to be sober.
Tell it to drop it because you do not drink.
Then call your sponsor and catch a meeting.
Hang in there Charlie and keep posting on SR. You can do it, we've got your back.