The ANXIETY
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The ANXIETY
I am on day 2 and I look back at all the things I have done and I wonder why am I like this? No one is ever going to accept me. I have done so many bad things. I am NOT someone for my kids to look up to. I feel completely hopeless.
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I haven't been happy in my marriage lately. I wonder if thats why I have been driven to this or have I not been happy in my marriage because I am like this and just held it back for so long.
My poor boys deserve better than me. So does my wife.
My poor boys deserve better than me. So does my wife.
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Join Date: Jul 2007
Location: Ft Collins, CO
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If we are still breathing we are not hopeless. We all have a past and the vast majority of us not good to some or a greater extent or we would not have decided to quit drinking or using. We don't quit because life has been great while we are/were doing it. The only thing that will make the past miss-deeds fade is to being doing the next right thing and continuing on such a path over time. There are no quick fixes that will wipe it clean. On the other side of the coin it is amazing how good life can be from this day forward. No matter what or who we have or don't have it is purely and simply up to us.
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Yeah there's no point in dwelling in the past, having an addiction inevitably means the past has a lot of moments we'd rather forget.
Instead it's time to look forward, there's always hope in the future, even if at times it's not that obvious, but with time things do get better!!
Instead it's time to look forward, there's always hope in the future, even if at times it's not that obvious, but with time things do get better!!
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Join Date: Jun 2012
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Only way to know the cause of you unhappy marriage is to remove from the equation the most obvious. The rest of the answers you probably know deep down inside already.
Don't be so hard on yourself, it will not accomplish anything than hold you back. Take baby steps if you have too, but move forward.
Be kind to yourself
Don't be so hard on yourself, it will not accomplish anything than hold you back. Take baby steps if you have too, but move forward.
Be kind to yourself
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I know. I didn't drink for 6 1/2 years and after a few day long binge, all the negativity and everything I used to feel has come right back. I thought I was out of it's reach after so long, but certainly not the case.
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Just hang on tight, change your mind, write a list of things you hate about drinking, or a list of action items you can take in the right direction.
Alcohol will only numb you temporarily. Live your emotions, don't try to run away from them. You can do this!
Alcohol will only numb you temporarily. Live your emotions, don't try to run away from them. You can do this!
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Seabee - be patient with yourself. You'll feel so much better when you have some decent sober time. At least you're trying to improve your life - some never see how alcohol is destroying them. Look forward to better days when the anxiety subsides.
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Hi Seabee keep posting and reading here, it's a great help, we are all here for the same reasons, not to let our addictions get the better of us.
Be kind to yourself and as pat an says, baby steps, one step in front of the other.
Be kind to yourself and as pat an says, baby steps, one step in front of the other.
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Slow down seabee - breathe - I know it's been a rough few days, but noone knows the future, least of all someone in withdrawal on day 2.
The best thing you can do is stay committed to being sober - day by day, minute by minute if needs be.
I promise you - things will get better - but you have to go through this tough detox part first...
stay close to SR - there's always support here
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The best thing you can do is stay committed to being sober - day by day, minute by minute if needs be.
I promise you - things will get better - but you have to go through this tough detox part first...
stay close to SR - there's always support here
D
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This sucks. Couldn't fal asleep till 2 AM, then I woke up 5 times having nightmares about demons stalking me. Then I get up and it's Christmas Morning and my wife and kids are still gone. Totally bummed.
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Hey Seabee, hang in there!
Try to take your mind of things, maybe go for a walk outside in the fresh air to clear the head! . . . or check out some TV to pass some time, in time things will get better.
The new sober you will hopefully bring your family back together again!
Try to take your mind of things, maybe go for a walk outside in the fresh air to clear the head! . . . or check out some TV to pass some time, in time things will get better.
The new sober you will hopefully bring your family back together again!
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