Not sure what to say.....
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Not sure what to say.....
Just want to start posting again.
Day 6 after the most horrific withdrawal yet. I really thought I was going to die for the first 2 days. Puking, dry retching, skull splitting headaches and sweat simply pouring out of me which absolutely stank for the next 3 days, all the time feeling sorry for myself and an utter failure of a human being.
At war with my AV. The beast is beaten into a corner and is cowering with fear at the moment, but i know the sneaky b****** will try anything to get his voice again, so I'm trying to arm myself with as many sticks as I can lay my hands on to keep him there.
One of these sticks is to read and contribute here. So here I am with one of my biggest weapons against him.
Day 6 after the most horrific withdrawal yet. I really thought I was going to die for the first 2 days. Puking, dry retching, skull splitting headaches and sweat simply pouring out of me which absolutely stank for the next 3 days, all the time feeling sorry for myself and an utter failure of a human being.
At war with my AV. The beast is beaten into a corner and is cowering with fear at the moment, but i know the sneaky b****** will try anything to get his voice again, so I'm trying to arm myself with as many sticks as I can lay my hands on to keep him there.
One of these sticks is to read and contribute here. So here I am with one of my biggest weapons against him.
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Originally Posted by Sparkos 
Just want to start posting again.
Day 6 after the most horrific withdrawal yet. I really thought I was going to die for the first 2 days. Puking, dry retching, skull splitting headaches and sweat simply pouring out of me which absolutely stank for the next 3 days, all the time feeling sorry for myself and an utter failure of a human being.
At war with my AV. The beast is beaten into a corner and is cowering with fear at the moment, but i know the sneaky b****** will try anything to get his voice again, so I'm trying to arm myself with as many sticks as I can lay my hands on to keep him there.
One of these sticks is to read and contribute here. So here I am with one of my biggest weapons against him.
Day 6 after the most horrific withdrawal yet. I really thought I was going to die for the first 2 days. Puking, dry retching, skull splitting headaches and sweat simply pouring out of me which absolutely stank for the next 3 days, all the time feeling sorry for myself and an utter failure of a human being.
At war with my AV. The beast is beaten into a corner and is cowering with fear at the moment, but i know the sneaky b****** will try anything to get his voice again, so I'm trying to arm myself with as many sticks as I can lay my hands on to keep him there.
One of these sticks is to read and contribute here. So here I am with one of my biggest weapons against him.
Love u Ireland 
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Thanks all. Twinings, no I really am not sure what I'm going to do TBH.
Last year I went to residential recovery for a month, felt fantastic........... and drank again after only 5 days. Tried AA many times, but my obstinate atheism simply would not allow me get into the whole Higher Power vibe, no matter how hard I tried.
AVRT and SR has given me the most success to date, so I think I'll concentrate on these.
Last year I went to residential recovery for a month, felt fantastic........... and drank again after only 5 days. Tried AA many times, but my obstinate atheism simply would not allow me get into the whole Higher Power vibe, no matter how hard I tried.
AVRT and SR has given me the most success to date, so I think I'll concentrate on these.
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I was watching a DVD the other night and a woman was going through withdrawal...and then we saw her sneaking back out, I was screaming at the TV...no, don't do it. You never have to go through this again if you JUST DON'T PICK UP.
I remember how horrible withdrawal was, and I felt for her...but felt even more how sad it was that she went through it, only to leap back into hell. And I know that knowing how crappy withdrawal is makes it harder for many to be willing to go through it again.
So, remember you NEVER have to feel this way again if you never pick up again.
I remember how horrible withdrawal was, and I felt for her...but felt even more how sad it was that she went through it, only to leap back into hell. And I know that knowing how crappy withdrawal is makes it harder for many to be willing to go through it again.
So, remember you NEVER have to feel this way again if you never pick up again.
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Thanks Threshold. The memory of this particular withdrawal, plus the fact that I know that they can only get worse, will give me a (yet another!) good motivation to keep that AV at bay.
I suppose that I've just got to keep on at it, and never let my guard down.
I suppose that I've just got to keep on at it, and never let my guard down.
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I'm confident you can do this. You appear to be able the recognize the difference between your voice and the beasts. Remember that you are in control of the situation, not IT. It cannot move your body, only you can.
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