Starting Over (again)
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Starting Over (again)
Last time I was here I was a lurker. I never really spoke, but the words of encouragement on this site helped me achieve my longest stint of sobriety, 90 days. Unfortunately, I fell back into old habits after moving from my newly established support system, aa meetings and counselors. I'd finished school and needed to move back with my family 1000mi away. Finally in September managed to sober up for another few months until this thanksgiving. It was my first holiday without my ex (together 13yrs). Somehow I'd talk myself into "I'm ok as long as I keep it to the weekend." This Saturday I woke up with a wicked hangover and bits of memory erased after my binge--not doing well obviously. Time to be real with myself. I can't drink EVER. I don't want to end up where I was a little less than a year ago suffering through detox with the shakes and unable to keep food down. Anyway, I'm hoping by becoming more active in the forums it can help me once the shock of my actions of this weekend dissipates and that devil pops up on my shoulder again. I know you guys are an encouraging, supportive group and hoping to utilize the forum while I establish myself into a new aa group. Thanks in advance and keep up the great work.
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Don't be to hard on yourself. I tried and failed many, many times. This is a great place for support, and I hope you feel free to post as often as you like.
I drank for a very long time and it took me a long time to unlearn drinking. You can do it. I hope you find a good AA group.
Keep in your mind where alcohol takes you. The regret, remorse and anxiety. Believe me, it'll will only get worse if you continue to drink if you're anything like I was.
Best to you.
I drank for a very long time and it took me a long time to unlearn drinking. You can do it. I hope you find a good AA group.
Keep in your mind where alcohol takes you. The regret, remorse and anxiety. Believe me, it'll will only get worse if you continue to drink if you're anything like I was.
Best to you.
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Welcome, MythicPhoenix.
I think you'll find that most people on SR have attempted countless times to moderate their drinking with no success (myself included). The only option for me is to quit totally. Good luck!
I think you'll find that most people on SR have attempted countless times to moderate their drinking with no success (myself included). The only option for me is to quit totally. Good luck!
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Thanks guys for all the encouragement. I'm not feeling too confident today so I'm rather sure I'll be sticking close to the forum.
Also, Ghostlight thanks. You're right, I am being hard on myself bc I'm so focused on all the time/work that I keep wasting. However, I did learned to drink when I was 17 and now that I'm in my 30s it will take some practice to unlearn it. Thanks for that perspective.
Also, Ghostlight thanks. You're right, I am being hard on myself bc I'm so focused on all the time/work that I keep wasting. However, I did learned to drink when I was 17 and now that I'm in my 30s it will take some practice to unlearn it. Thanks for that perspective.
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You have proved that you can string some sober days together so maybe a slightly different mindset may be the final nail in the poisons coffin. I try to focus only on the positive things in my sobriety so I don't feel I am giving anything up , I am only gaining things. I think the longer we think that we are depriving ourselves somehow, well the harder it becomes to embrace our sobriety. Keep posting and all the best.
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Thank you Phoenix. I started drinking when I was fourteen, have been quit three years and I'm fifty four. So I know what you mean.
All I knew how to do was drink.
And you're right about the time lost. That's my biggest regret. Laying in bed hungover or imbibing missing the whole world. What a waste.
You can make it. Many of us here are through different methods, or just coming here.
Best to you my friend.
All I knew how to do was drink.
And you're right about the time lost. That's my biggest regret. Laying in bed hungover or imbibing missing the whole world. What a waste.
You can make it. Many of us here are through different methods, or just coming here.
Best to you my friend.
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Welcome to the posting side of things mythicphoenix 
Why not join the Class of December thread for more support as well? It's for anyone quitting this month.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-2-a.html
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Why not join the Class of December thread for more support as well? It's for anyone quitting this month.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-2-a.html
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Welcome back! Not everyone gets sober the first time, sometimes we have to grow into sobriety. I never even seriously considered quitting forever til my early forties, and didn't actually kick it til I was 43.
Let this time be the one it sticks! Good to have you at SR!
Let this time be the one it sticks! Good to have you at SR!
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