cryingbuddha77

I ended up drinking again last night. It's been every other night this week. My husband comes home today which is good, because he's sober and I won't drink around him and I don't go to bars. Plus he's very supportive. Without him, I probably wouldn't have had the 75 days I had this fall.

I feel ashamed and guilty and all of that. I feel like a horrible person. I think if I could stop feeling like a horrible person maybe I wouldn't want alcohol to numb my emotions so much. Guess I'll have to work on that.

So, I'm making this my last day 1. Again. I really need some advise on relapse prevention. I don't want to go to AA, I've tried it and it's just not right for me. Are there other resources to help someone stay sober? I don't want to keep going through this. It's really disheartening.

Thank you all for your support as I continue down this path. I will never give up on my sobriety. I will succeed. I know I can do this!

Thepatman

I am not an AA member, but if you only went once or twice, maybe you didn’t give it a chance?

There are other options, Rational Recovery, Urge Surfing techniques, AVRT.

And you are not a bad person, you have an addiction. Good news is that you can dig your way out and live a happy life.

mecanix

Hello cryingbuddha ,
i come to SR everyday and post maybe 3 or 4 times a day , read the gratitude threads .. the healthy eaters … seems to help me

Hope to see you round more often ,

Bestwishes, m

Markdad3

I tried other methods, but the bottle brought me back to AA. I had to Surrender. Took three tries. Dont give up hope. I thought AA wouldnt work for me either. Turns out I didnt want to work with AA. Back again now and doing what sober people suggest. I had to be sick enough to want recovery more that I wanted to continue living the way I was.

least

I hope this can be your last day one.

Dee74

There's many different approaches and methods of recovery around CB- here's some links to some of the main players, including but not limited to AA:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

I recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.

The main thing tho - whatever you decide to do - is do something.
In my experience, inaction just leads to more drinking....

D

KateL

You are right to never give up. Just start over, you can do it xx