39 sober days straight
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39 sober days straight
I made the decision to stop drinking on September 2, 2013, and since then, have been through a lot of ups and downs. I made it 39 days at the start of my sobriety before I had my first slip. I still remember that days clearly and what I was thinking as I brought the glass of vodka to my mouth. I remember thinking I was going to end my streak at 39 days but the call of my AV was too much. The next thing I knew, it was two days later on a Sunday morning and I felt horrible. I swore I would never do it again. Then I slipped two more times in October...
After the third and last "lost weekend" as I call them now, I was over it. The third slip was different. I didn't have fun as I was drinking and I had super severe anxiety for two days after. To make matters even more complicated, two days after my slip I was on a plane to Las Vegas for work. I knew I was going to be tested and I was determined to win.
Fast forward 39 days to today and I have tied my longest run since making the choice to live a sober life. My mindset and resolve at this 39 day point is night and day to where it was at the first one. I have learned so much in the 3+ months of my sober journey. I learned my triggers. I learned how to recognize my AV and how to shut it down. Most importantly, I'm starting to learn who I am again and that is a person who is perfectly happy without alcohol in my life. I did it for 21 years before I picked up my first drink and I will do it again now.
I want to say thank you so much to everyone here on SR for your kind words, support and understanding. I make this site a daily stop and will continue to do so thanks to all of you. For those just starting out, I can only say give it time. If you slip, that's ok. Learn from it and get right back on track. It really does get better. It really does get easier. It really is worth it!
After the third and last "lost weekend" as I call them now, I was over it. The third slip was different. I didn't have fun as I was drinking and I had super severe anxiety for two days after. To make matters even more complicated, two days after my slip I was on a plane to Las Vegas for work. I knew I was going to be tested and I was determined to win.
Fast forward 39 days to today and I have tied my longest run since making the choice to live a sober life. My mindset and resolve at this 39 day point is night and day to where it was at the first one. I have learned so much in the 3+ months of my sober journey. I learned my triggers. I learned how to recognize my AV and how to shut it down. Most importantly, I'm starting to learn who I am again and that is a person who is perfectly happy without alcohol in my life. I did it for 21 years before I picked up my first drink and I will do it again now.
I want to say thank you so much to everyone here on SR for your kind words, support and understanding. I make this site a daily stop and will continue to do so thanks to all of you. For those just starting out, I can only say give it time. If you slip, that's ok. Learn from it and get right back on track. It really does get better. It really does get easier. It really is worth it!
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A lot of similarities to myself, especially knowingly putting the glass to your mouth aware that you were going to end your run. Then the part about the anxiety.
Inspirational. It is so easy to forget how bad we feel when we drink.
Inspirational. It is so easy to forget how bad we feel when we drink.
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So, so proud of & for you, Zelda!!!
I hated my last slip too - thank you for that reminder. I hated it so much that I was able to pull myself out of the nose drive after one drunk (instead of a week or months-long episode). Maybe recovery is progressive too!!
At any rate, here's to tomorrow. May it find us both as sober & as grateful as we are today.
I hated my last slip too - thank you for that reminder. I hated it so much that I was able to pull myself out of the nose drive after one drunk (instead of a week or months-long episode). Maybe recovery is progressive too!!
At any rate, here's to tomorrow. May it find us both as sober & as grateful as we are today.
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Originally Posted by ZeldaFan 
Most importantly, I'm starting to learn who I am again and that is a person who is perfectly happy without alcohol in my life. I did it for 21 years before I picked up my first drink and I will do it again now.
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