gabriel01

Yesterday I finally bought the book "codependent no more", I'm still reading, but I noticed that I'm a big codependent. I start thinking I wasn't in love, I was looking for love from my "bf" to love which doesn't really exist.

As I reading, I felt better. But when I put it down and tried to watch some tv to relax. I thought about him. Then I did my old routine, checked on him (I just move out by myself last week). I saw his bank transaction he went to liquid store & spent $75 on Monday night. I was upset. I wanted to call him & yell at him. But I knew it was useless. But I was upset. I knew it was a lie about he told me the night before that he will get his shxx together n just wait for him. I'm hurt, but myself I know I can't do anything to change him, and I have to take care of myself...but I'm upset, lonely and hurt

overit263

Stay strong, it will get better, then worse, then better so on and so forth.

gabriel01

He has been sending texts to me these two nights. I'm so lost. I seem don't care if he keeps doing things to hurt himself (e.g. Drinking or drugs) I didn't panic on Monday. But I miss him, yet I dunno what to say to him. I don't even want to confront with him what he did on Monday anymore. I don't want to lose him...but I know I am not willing to live with an addict for my life...I'm lost