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I did not do well with thanksgiving and had wine - I have drank every day since - today that stops - I dont know why it's so hard - I though I could handle a glass or 2 with dinner but it was like I never stopped - I need to prepare myself for Christmas and new years - I'm done and I can't allow myself to slip back in
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That's how it was with me, one drink and I was off. I didn't drink for enjoyment, I drank to get drunk.
I've never had a single drink or two in my life and I never intend to. It's either all or nothing.
What works for me, is remembering how I felt after drinking. The remorse, anxiety and feeling of failurre once again.
You're not alone. Best to you on stopping again.
I've never had a single drink or two in my life and I never intend to. It's either all or nothing.
What works for me, is remembering how I felt after drinking. The remorse, anxiety and feeling of failurre once again.
You're not alone. Best to you on stopping again.
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Same for me. If I drink all I will think about is that next drink and on and on. There is no peace in it, just makes me nervous and irritable needing another drink, that magical one drink. Doesn't exist. The longer you stay sober the further away you get from that compulsion. I am still new to sobriety (74 days) and feel great, so good that I have to remind myself that it is not possible for me to have one or two drinks. Keep going and it does get easier.
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"I though I could handle a glass or 2 with dinner but it was like I never stopped" I relapsed after 10.5 months sobriety. Did I have a glass or 2? No. I had a bottle or two. And kept right on going. In my experience, I can never go back to being a moderate drinker.
You are back here. You have support. Don't beat yourself up. Hang in there!
You are back here. You have support. Don't beat yourself up. Hang in there!
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I totally relate as well. I actually had a stare-down with a glass of wine on Thanksgiving. One of the things that helped me keep from reaching for it was this site--I thought about all the poeple here fighting the good fight: I want to be one of them. It's starting to sound like we're going to have a big on-line Christmas party here on SR! I know I'll be there.
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Originally Posted by malcolmsloan 
I totally relate as well. I actually had a stare-down with a glass of wine on Thanksgiving. One of the things that helped me keep from reaching for it was this site--I thought about all the poeple here fighting the good fight: I want to be one of them. It's starting to sound like we're going to have a big on-line Christmas party here on SR! I know I'll be there.
Glad to have you aboard!
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Originally Posted by EndGameNYC
Abstinence often breeds heavy drinking and binging, so deprived do we feel when we've put together some dry time.
Now you know. Adjust accordingly.
Now you know. Adjust accordingly.
That's not what happened - I thought I could handle 2 glasses of wine with dinner on thanksgiving - I ended up drinking - bottle and 1/2 -i always drank a bottle of wine on weeknights and more on weekends before i tried to stop in november -once I started back up on thanksgiving I was back to my usual pattern until I woke up Friday totally hungover again and knew I had to stop - it wasn't abstinence that bred my heavy drinking it's my inability (alcoholism) to stop drinking WHENEVER I start drinking.....
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