Bullet has been bitten ; )
Bullet has been bitten ; )
Hi , just wanted to say thanks for the encouragement, it worked , I went to the meeting !!!
3 exclamation marks bc it took some guts to get there. All day I've been arguing with myself about going. And .... It was ok , it was great really. What a huge relief to not be alone anymore. Ashamed and alone.
The people were kind and warm and funny. No , there was no one there I knew ! But some people that I think I will get to know. Anyone who is thinking about going , go , just once, it's only truly awful for about ten mins. I'll definitely be going next week and probably to another I was invited to on Friday.
I came out if there so much lighter than I have in ages. Into the light pt : )
Thanks again everyone for helping me get there, you rule x
3 exclamation marks bc it took some guts to get there. All day I've been arguing with myself about going. And .... It was ok , it was great really. What a huge relief to not be alone anymore. Ashamed and alone.
The people were kind and warm and funny. No , there was no one there I knew ! But some people that I think I will get to know. Anyone who is thinking about going , go , just once, it's only truly awful for about ten mins. I'll definitely be going next week and probably to another I was invited to on Friday.
I came out if there so much lighter than I have in ages. Into the light pt : )
Thanks again everyone for helping me get there, you rule x
So this is what happened : drank last night , rang one of the people who gave me their number at the meeting and she is picking me up to go to another shortly. I don't wAnt to go ; I want to drink bc it seems easier. But I know it's not. Oh god don't you wish you could just reprogram yr head ?
former walking pharmacy
Join Date: Oct 2008
Location: Watertown, CT
Posts: 146
So glad to hear that seiceps. I remember my first meeting, too. Took about 3 or 4 tries (literally, 3 or 4 trips to the place, sitting in my car, and being too scared to go in) before I finally went in. I don't even follow the AA program now that i'm actually in recovery but boy, do I relate to the feeling of 'not being alone any more.'
Thanks guys. I just feel so petty , like a spoilt teen, I want to rebel against this course of action. I know it's stupid but but but. Anyway off to this meeting ..... Feeling so angry at everything !
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