Seiceps

Hi , just wanted to say thanks for the encouragement, it worked , I went to the meeting !!!
3 exclamation marks bc it took some guts to get there. All day I've been arguing with myself about going. And .... It was ok , it was great really. What a huge relief to not be alone anymore. Ashamed and alone.
The people were kind and warm and funny. No , there was no one there I knew ! But some people that I think I will get to know. Anyone who is thinking about going , go , just once, it's only truly awful for about ten mins. I'll definitely be going next week and probably to another I was invited to on Friday.
I came out if there so much lighter than I have in ages. Into the light pt : )
Thanks again everyone for helping me get there, you rule x

GracieLou

Well done!

I know that light feeling. It happens to me every time I go to a meeting. Knowing I am not alone helps a great deal!

Keep coming back!

Dee74

great stuff seiceps

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Seiceps

Thx guys , I'm actually sitting here smiling tonight instead of well you know.

Tabbj

Great job

Marcher13

Seiceps good on you for going! I was just wondering how you were and if you got to the meeting tonight, it's great news that you followed through on your promise to yourself.

Skye2

Well done

HeadLump

That's great news, Seiceps. I love the thought of you just sitting there and smiling

Great encouragement for others, too

PurpleKnight

Great stuff!!

hayley86

That's great Seiceps. Glad it went well.

Seiceps

So this is what happened : drank last night , rang one of the people who gave me their number at the meeting and she is picking me up to go to another shortly. I don't wAnt to go ; I want to drink bc it seems easier. But I know it's not. Oh god don't you wish you could just reprogram yr head ?

Dee74

You can - it just takes a little work, a little time, and a little doing what you don't want to do

It's more a marathon that a sprint...but you can do this Seiceps

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Image101

So glad to hear that seiceps. I remember my first meeting, too. Took about 3 or 4 tries (literally, 3 or 4 trips to the place, sitting in my car, and being too scared to go in) before I finally went in. I don't even follow the AA program now that i'm actually in recovery but boy, do I relate to the feeling of 'not being alone any more.'

Seiceps

Thanks guys. I just feel so petty , like a spoilt teen, I want to rebel against this course of action. I know it's stupid but but but. Anyway off to this meeting ..... Feeling so angry at everything !