malcolmsloan

Wow, what a night. Congrats on to all those who survived the first sober thanksgiving. And to those who may have caved, I hope you can pick up and get going again soon: all is not lost. I spent about two hours last night, just hanging out on SR, reading posts and threads, and trying to offer anything I could, struggling with my own cravings; however, I woke up to see that it dosen't look like my responses on threads are showing up--hmmm. . .is it my computer? Am I still not using the site right? Anyway, I'm a bit sad because I had a some heartfelt comments. So, just for the record, I heard and thought about many of you last night, and my thoughts of support were with you.

And I think the sleep issue is FINALLY coming around. It's not at all great, but I feel like I am just starting to relearn. I have the first glance of a future with sleep.

Mikie9

And this time, you wrote sort of what I came to write this morning. I went thru a very rough day yesterday and had doubts about making it thru. My small family didn't do anything for thanksgiving this year, so I was alone all day and night. I had so many negative thoughts and temptations.

But when I laid my head down to go to sleep, my mind seemed to drop the bad thoughts of the day, and just started going over what I was going to do tomorrow, and i slept 9 deep hours and feel so good that I made it thru. Almost feels like I got a shot of confidence in this process. I still have 3 days off from work, so I am trying to plan out activities for the rest of the weekend. If nothing else I will just wear myself out with exercise.

Hang in there malcolm, we are getting thru this and it is looking better and better each morning!

Mikie9

Oh and I just checked, your posts went thru last night. When I click your name and click find more posts by, it shows many posts from 9:30p-12:30a or so.

malcolmsloan

Good to hear from you Mikie9. I'm so happy that you made it through the night. Man that was brutal. My mind started going to Thanksgivings past, and I had to really work at remembering the torment AFTER the so-called celebration, which I see now as obliteration. And, hey congrats on your day 10! Have a good weekend, bud. Stay strong.

thanks for checking the posts, I guess I have the capacity to do that too? I'm still learning how to use this site.

Mikie9

Thanks man, glad you are right along with me! My day and night was one of remembering all the stupid things I had done or said drunk, the obsessive feelings I use to always have and the hating of myself for the days and nights wasted away for a buzz. There's a slide show no one wants to see lol.

You can check like I did, just click your name that's to the left of your posts and a menu will pop down.

Nonsensical

Glad for you. Getting the booze monkey off the back is hard enough when well-rested. Many of my past cave-ins were related to sleep deprivation.

One hurdle down, many more to go, but sounds like you're on your way.