LindaLou

Before leaving work today, a coworker said "Man I can't wait to get outta here so I can start drinkin'." My first thought was "Seriously dude? How sad." Then I realized....that used to be me! I'm just nearing 3 weeks of sobriety and already beginning to notice things I ever did before. Like an unconscious shift in my attitude towards alcohol. I quit for nearly a year about 4 years ago, but I think I was more of a "dry drunk" then; wanting to drink and being miserable that I couldn't. Now I truly want to be sober, maybe that is the difference?

Anyway, sorry to ramble on. It really just floored me that my first thought was "how sad"; so effortless and natural. I'm amazed.

I come to SR daily to keep me accountable and for inspiration. For that I thank you all.

So, to anyone who is struggling, hang in there. Day by day, it really does get better.

I hope everyone has a safe, peaceful and sober Thanksgiving!

~Linda

least

Congrats on three weeks sober! It is amazing how our thinking changes once alcohol is out of the picture.

alphaomega

Thata girl !!

TexasMichael

Welcome back to SR LindaLou

I quit drinking the first part of 2009 and did not drink for most of the year.

By the end of the year I convinced myself I could control my drinking. It was no problem for a few months. After that I was back to beer for breakfast and hang-overs every day. Took me 3 1/2 years to quit again. I learned my lesson about moderation.

Congratulations on almost 3 SOBER weeks!

LindaLou

Thanks TexasM! I hear ya about moderation. I could moderate the first drink, but not the rest that followed (ha ha)!

Correy

I fully relate to it and trust and believe this is the difference indeed.

To me it would be no point of "not drinking" if I want to drink. I loved drinking and I loved being drunk.

So, I've tried that life and am now trying a new one, a sober one, hapilly re-visiting the world that somehow has more hues and more colors, more sounds and more smells than the other one, drowned in booze, distorted through the broken glass of a shattered bottle somewhere nearby...

Apage Satanas! I may be crazy, but I am sober.

LindaLou

Indeed, it is a brighter world. I love the way you've described it! Almost poetic.

PurpleKnight

Haha yeah the first drink was never the problem, it was the finishing off of the bottle!!

Congrats on 3 weeks!!